Its an Icy Cold Life

I"m into Photography

2011-10-01T11:40:00.000-07:00

Im into photography now, this is my response to M Night killing by favest cartoon "Avatar the last air bender" ....more to come

Its that time again

2011-08-16T10:09:00.000-07:00

Yes time is flying by, we are now in the middle of August. Good news , remember my exams? hmmmm did i blog about it? Anyways I passed!! I was entirely shocked, since i only put in 2 weeks of studying. I'm thankful to the almighty. Now on to Financial Accounting and Q.M....I swear im going to at least put in a month studying :)

Hooray!

Me not You

2011-06-13T06:50:00.000-07:00

Me not you

I am in charge of my own happiness.

I will make my own destiny.

I will fail at times but failure makes success sweeter.

I will never stop caring for me.

I will succeed.

I will

That’s it right there I will

Not maybe I will

Not I think I will

Just plain and simple

I will

My will

My strength

My life

My journey

Movie Time!

2011-06-13T06:11:00.000-07:00

Remember at one time in my life i lived at the movies? Every weekend i would be there in CC8 , popcorn in hand , drink at my side feverishly awaiting the start of some adventure. Then for some reason every time i entered Trinicity mall i felt sick to my stomach, maybe it was my mindset, maybe it was all the carbon dioxide floating around there, maybe it was just me being a wimpy bitch, whatever the case I stopped going. Now I'm back in the Cinema seat but not at CC8, I've upgraded to Movietowne....Its much more expensive...like twice the price of everything, is it worth it however? I would say so . The seats are much more comfortable, the ambiance is great and best of all people have manners. No loud talking , no shouting at the screen, no throwing popcorn just normal people taking in a show.

Anyways back to the Movie Kung Fu Panda 2 ..I have yet to see part one :/ but part 2 was extremely funny. I thoroughly enjoyed it. Jack Black is really -the man-, the way he conveys expression in his voice is so unique and hilarious. I wouldn't mind seeing it a second time.

The best joke : The soot Sayer chewing on the Peacocks coat LOL!!!

Go see it and forget your problems even if its for 1.5 hours , you will feel refreshed at the end.

I'm living on the sun

2011-06-13T05:55:00.000-07:00

Seriously this weekend was such a scorcher that i went temporarily insane. I started spinning furiously on my chair hoping to generate some type of whirlwind, it didn't work--I was just left dizzy and sweaty. So i upped and floored it to the mall, but to no avail ...seems like the mall was stuffy hott as well so grabbing some ice cream I left and realized that driving around in the car with the AC on high was the best option to keep kool.

And as usual the rain fell this morning. Monday! after no clouds in the sky all weekend :( , I'm hoping that the long weekend ahead would hold at least one day of rain so i can sleep in and maybe even get to sit outside in it for awhile.

Here's hoping that the week ahead is filled with loads of great stuff :)

Tumblr

2011-06-10T06:40:00.000-07:00

I've added a feed widget for my tumblr blog i've just opened, feel free to visit, and amuse yourself. I still have to figure out if i wanna be here or there :/, I love it here plus i've already clocked in 18K visits since I opened this baby up, it'll be hard to just walk away from that. So for now, a little here , a little there.

I'm Back!

2011-05-04T06:28:00.000-07:00

Wow been so long right. Life is busy now ....school, work plus balancing everything else.

Tristan started pre-school Monday past, wasn't he just born? Time really does just fly by, he's growing up so quickly and everyone is one step closer to becoming ashes. Scary thought i know.

I went NYC...fuck yes! It was awesome, not how i imagined it to be, personally I prefer London.

Have lots of stories to write, lots of stories to tell for now I'm just checking in ( i say that alot and then poof I'm gone for another couple months lol) But honestly my brain needs to get those gears moving again, and writing may help.

BTW i suck at school, nothing sticks...I suck at studying also ...I'm scared for exams ...I don't want to fail but failure is an inevitable part of life....

I came off Facebook ...why cause I'm too addicted, I'm always up in there playing Zuma trying to beat someones score gosh i wasted too much time there, I'll go back maybe in a couple months. In the mean time i Tweet so follow me Duran_Icewolf ...if you dare of course...and don't mind pretty mundane tweets..lol

So many things to touch on...so little time...I'll be back before the day is up ...I hope

Better Late than Never

2011-03-03T04:50:00.000-08:00

Our Xmas tree home

Lovely Wreaths in the living room

Santa and his reindeer plus balls

3 wisecracking snowmen

Merry Christmas!!!

Here are some brief pics of my Xmas decos. Not much to say about it lol, I think Christmas came and went in a blur of red and green. I didn't enjoy it as much as i usually do because of the rush of things. This year i promise to be better prepared so in the days before i wont be running around like a crazee man on crack looking for presents instead i'll kick back and relax.

NEED HELP

2010-11-18T10:22:00.000-08:00

To any and everyone who reads my blog , please go to the following link and click the big 'VOTE" button, i need as many votes as possible , cause i wanna win an ipad :)...thanks in advance, BTW it will only take you 30 secs

http://wildfireapp.com/website/6/contests/61402/voteable_entries/11013575?ogn=website&order=recency

Why do people ...

2010-09-27T09:28:00.000-07:00

Why do people discourage rather than encourage? Whats so hard in saying "well good for you, I'm sure once you put your mind to it , you'll be able to do it" instead of "yuh sure you want to do that? But you need to have math in order to accomplish anything, it might be difficult, yuh sure you have the money to do that?"

Let me rewind....I've decided to pursue a diploma in Business Management , I've already made all the necessary arrangements to sign up for this course in Nov. one of the requirements is a job letter stating your duties and the length of time you have been employed with said company. I'm entering through the "mature route" . I do not have a pass in Math, and i don't think i ever will since Math is such a difficult subject for me, I know the basics of course but i could never see myself needing to build a bridge anytime soon for me to want to know the rest of the concepts.

All this was of course discussed with the personnel at the school who advised me that English is given priority in this course rather than Math ( English i am good at :D) so blah blah blah long story short. My co worker insist that in order for me to be anywhere remotely successful in this course i NEED to have a pass in Math. Well i say to her "boooo" Usually words like hers would make me pack up and not do the course, but that's the old me, the new me says bitch imma show you , imma show all of you that i can be successful in whatever I've put my mind to.

So here's wishing me good luck!

Funnn

2010-09-21T18:35:00.000-07:00

I just drank 1.5 liters of "Blue Waters" water, dancing this song and pretending to be slizzard-ed.....

Muse

2010-09-21T17:43:00.000-07:00

"And when tears are shed from the eyes of the moon, the earth will shed its skin and we will all be no more....."

So out of the blue, I'm staring at my facebook page and these words come dancing into my head. It can only mean one thing...My muse is back!!

I've been complaining alot lately that i have no motivation to start or finish anything creative, i feel as if something is missing -the force that usually pushed me forward- the same force that would randomly put thoughts in my head, words not of my own. Words that need to scribble down ASAP before they disappear. I feel as if its back , now let the fun begin :)

Weekend Heat

2010-09-20T17:52:00.000-07:00

Although parts of the country got a serious dosage of rain, the little nook I'm in got blistering sun...just thinking about it makes me sweat a little. Both Saturday and Sunday were so extremely hot that i hardly did anything but laze around in the hammock hoping that the odd wind would pass and cool me down. In other words this weekend was uneventful....wait...*headslap* I saw my ex ....yup after 2 odd years of being broken up , our paths crossed while i was shopping with my sister.

Awkward is one way to describe it ...i did not speak to her, my sister however blabbed on and on ...I was just standing there , pretending to be looking at shampoo ( of all things) , she left, then i got the sharpest jab in my ribs and a scolding for not saying hello...I watched her walk away , something odd happened then and there ...I felt deep within me something stirring ...i don't know what it was, but it left me feeling guilty and "bad"....I quickly pushed it aside with a Kit Kat bar ....TGFC ( thank god for chocolate)

Practice

2010-09-20T17:47:00.000-07:00

Here are some graphic pics i did...I'm getting better :)

Ughhhh

2010-09-20T17:14:00.000-07:00

Seriously people make me feel like crap sometimes, like I'm nothing, lower than nothing, like i should be guilty for just breathing....why do i always let someones words or attitude get to me like that? Ughhhhh self confidence is the word and lacking it is my game....(does that even make sense?)

Take for instance the witch, once i showed up to work on casual Fridays with an American Eagle polo...she looked at me and said in the most surprised tone " is that American Eagle? " to which i replied yes and then she further asked " like real American Eagle?" ....I of course said yes and she just rolled her eyes and walked away....it left me feeling as if i wasn't worthy enough to be wearing that polo...I mean WTF!!! Was i too low on her society pyramid to be wearing it? **sigh**

I have many other examples but i rather not relive them at this point. All i wanna do i curl up in a corner and cry. Boo on the world...

Meat Dress

2010-09-19T18:27:00.000-07:00

I Love me some GAGA, but this meat dress ---it doesn't shock me ---but it sort of disgusts me...i mean wearing meat...raw, unprocessed meat...how was it smelling? I can hardly stand the smell at the butcher's shop so i imagine they had to have used some sort of curing process on this dress. Her statement however i love, we need to stand up for something or else we won't even be worth the meat on our bones and will be treated as such..booyah!...I still don't like the dress *queasy*

Sad Song

2010-09-19T18:01:00.000-07:00

This song makes me so sad :(

Critical Thinking

2010-09-19T17:50:00.000-07:00

Recently i came across a book in work that's supposed to help you be a critical thinker in 25 days, well not a complete transformation but it implants the basic foundation to change your thinking. So far it really interesting and challenges me to question my mind. At the end of it I'm supposed to come out more confident and a better conversationalist....I have no idea whether it will work out or not but what the hey, I'm giving it a try. The first lesson is to show more empathy towards your fellow human being...I'll let you know how that turns out k.

Time, Time Time

2010-09-13T18:53:00.000-07:00

Time is flying, spinning out of control..its scary...one minute it was July and suddenly its September....either I've gotten so lazy that time just decided to leave me on the way side or no one is noticing that it has in fact sped up.

While i ponder this "time warp" the good news -CHRISTMAS is closer , its 102 days till the jolly day, but the season starts for me in October. Xmas to me is a season rather than a day, so this year i intend to enjoy each day of the season, as you may have guessed its my most favest time of year, so intend to savor each moment, because of this time warp , it'll be gone in two shakes of a rabbit tail.

Mayaro run down...

2010-09-13T17:55:00.000-07:00

The family lime was spectacular, had loads of fun just chilling with the everyone...its so nice to know that my family can get together like this...many families can't and for that I'm very thankful for them no matter how screwed up they are..lol...

Unfortunately i was stuck with breakfast duties...uggghhh...can you imagine staying up till 3am liming then having to get up at 8am to prepare Bfast for everyone, reguardless i woke up at 9 and bfast was on the table at 10.30...LOL that will soo teach them....I made French toast, potato fritatta , omelets and scrambled eggs all served on toast...of course these were all made on different mornings.

One of my favorite moments was sitting on the beach at night, the waves crashing on the shore, the clouds low and heavy with rain...me there having a hot bowl of chicken corn soup and just thinking to myself, darn the simplest pleasures are really the best.

After 5 days i was burnt to a crisp and was more than happy to be back home and in my own comfy bed, instead of one i had to share with cousins.....cousins who snore btw. Mayaro is definitely a place to make memories and this was no different . Cant wait to go back, unfortunately it'll probably be next year

Did i mention the beach on a rainy day is simply the best?!

Beach Beach Beach

2010-08-26T04:31:00.000-07:00

The countdown is on to the weekend lime at Mayaro. I'm super excited, the family is heading up there today, I'll be joining them tomorrow (cause of work bleh :( ...) So I'm basically missing one full day of fun, guess I'll have to make up for it when i get there.

The menu has been planned and it sounds delish. Wontons, Geera chicken, Souse, Shepherds Pie are among some of the tasty morsels I'll be sinking my teeth into. My friend Dave and I are strictly in charge of breakfast...so yuh know its bread and cheese 5 days straight for everyone..LOL , nah i kid ...I have a lovely breakfast menu planned most of which i can't spell but it involves eggs, potatoes, cheeses, jams and all those delish stuff.

My only worry is that i am not able to leave early tomorrow. I'm very punctual at work , and hardly ever take any time off, I've informed management of my intention to leave half day tomorrow since the beginning of the month, if for some unplanned reason i am unable to get that time off, bet your bottom dollar i am staying home Wednesday....not out of spite but all other workers are allowed to leave early, get time off whenever they choose but I for some reason its always a problem...I'm talking from experience here. ...I guess yea out of spite lol

The witch isn't coming in today ( does happy dance) , so Thursday wont be as stressful as it usually is, Here's asking the universe for a wonderfully delicious day ahead.

Duck , duck...Goo..err...Dog

2010-08-26T04:17:00.000-07:00

Well this certainly is a different perspective. The human mind is a thing of wonder. Two persons can look at the same exact picture and interpret it in completely different ways. Whoever noticed this ..great imagination..thanks for pointing it out...now even more reason to be freaked out by ducks

Christmas!!

2010-08-25T07:13:00.000-07:00

I visited Pricesmart yesterday to get some stuff for the Mayaro lime that is happening this weekend , when what should i come across but early Christmas decorations...I flipped with excitement...Its early but i bought myself 2 of those stockings...they are so awesome!! I want a new Xmas tree this year, but the one pictured is 2600.00...yer way out of my budget..LOL.. but a guy can hope can't he?

A Thousand Tears

2010-08-25T07:09:00.000-07:00

My blog of poetry will soon be a memory of the past, I've taken all my posts from there and combined them into this blog..which will be soon renamed as well. So if you are interested in some of my macabre writings they are labeled as poems, poems past and a thousand tears . 2 blogs was wayy more than i could handle...I hardly had time for this one alone...lol.. I'll be adding some of my new writings occasionally, whenever time permits and the inspiration hits.

Seriously

2010-08-25T06:36:00.000-07:00

Come on spammers for Zeus sakes, I log on to blogger get all excited cause i see 3 unapproved comments only to find out its SPAM!! Stupes please do not dash my hopes like that again...geeze...

In other news its WEDNESDAY!! One day closer to Friday :) and this Friday is an extra special one --I'm heading Mayaro with mi familia for a 5 day funfest, I'm seriously excited. The food, the laughs, the pillow fights, the sand, the water, the running, the sunrise and most importantly the relaxation. Its gonna be sooo good.

Yesterday the witch wasn't as horrible as she usually is (didn't summon a winter that would last a thousand years) which leads me to believe that she is also going on vacation from today (whispers around the office)...well good for her, hope she comes back with a much better attitude.

Here's hoping for a great safe day!

OMGAGA

2010-08-24T04:30:00.001-07:00

I just looked at my counter located on the sidebar, since i've installed it , I've had over ten thousand hits...CRAZZZYYYYYY....maybe most of those hits came from myself..LOL.. i do check my blog occasionally, but i didn't realize people actually visit my blog. So a big THANK YOU if you stumbled upon my little piece of cyberspace. Hope you enjoy my random thoughts and i hope you can stomach it to visit me again :) Woohooo

New Friends

2010-08-24T04:02:00.000-07:00

I've made alot of new online pals , some of them close to me , some of them not so much...I'm thinking of reviving "Creature Feature" will be good to appreciate the people I've got in my life, but not yet though I have to of course get permission from my friends to use their photo.

Diet Update: I've lost a LB...yup I'm pretty proud. Its not much but it is a start. I've basically cut out all snacks from my must have food groups, no soft drinks either. I feel healthier and energetic. I've also begun walking around the Savannah....well i only did it once...but i intend to try and get there at least 3 times per week. Hey its a start and its much better than me flopping around with my fatty self just getting bigger.

Monday went by with alot less stress than i expected, but today- gosh ...Tuesday is like the worse day of the week, right next to Thursday of course ( that's the other day "the witch" comes in) I'm approaching the day with caution, like a small mouse i''ll pop my head out sniff for danger then quickly pop back inside my cosy comfortable nest ( my office) until the danger passes...that's unless the cat decides to come ripping off my front door to scream at me for not filing away some report ...then I'll have to bite and scratch . Here's hoping its a good Tuesday.

Mondays

2010-08-23T06:27:00.000-07:00

I used to hate Mondays but now i have a deep seething hate for Tuesdays...why...for none other reason than my witch of a manager is here on Tuesdays. Uggghhh how on earth could one person be so grumpy? I for one cannot walk through life with such a dark aura. I used to hate her, but now all i feel is pity. Pity that she is too wrapped up in her own world to experience the joy of life. O well enough about her....lets talk about my favorite subject ....Me

Over the last months I have been a literal roller coaster of emotions. Ups and deep dark downs, but through it all I never once forgot that i had friends and family i could lean on, not to mention a wonderful GF :). My whole attitude has changed, the way i view life is completely different from the emo kid i once was. I've matured. Good thing? I guess its left to be seen, of course I'll always let the kid inside me out to prank someone every now and again.

I'm Alive and well

2010-07-06T18:56:00.000-07:00

It would seem that i have forgotten about blogging, the passion isn't there as much as it used to be but slowly its creeping back up, I'm looking forward to the feeling completely taking me over and i can get back to being a "regular blogger", instead of the usual expressionless me , so here's hoping that like my vitamins I'll be here once a day.

Its Finally Here

2010-04-16T04:33:00.000-07:00

The rain!!! Finally after how many odd months of blistering sun Trinidad is blessed with some rain, albeit a small amount but beggars can't be choosers. I wanna go out there and revel in the moister but instead I'm here in work behind a desk looking out longingly at the dark clouds that surround the building. Betcha I'll find some reason to step outside if only for a minute to feel the rain. :P

Update on my diet...ummm...so far so good, however i think i need a solid plan to get this thing kicked off the ground, i can't take shots in the dark, makes no sense at all. I'll be scouring the Internet to find a plan that suits me, nothing too drastic, i don't want to be munching on carrots all day like a crazed rabbit. Something simple that will show its effects over time. So here goes, BTW i'm superproud i was offered chocolate by a co worker yesterday and i *gasp* refused, yes I said No!!!...well i said no thanks :) I'm so on my way

Heavy

2010-04-15T05:06:00.000-07:00

Grrrrr I'm 170LBS ...gulp i moved from a comfortable 150 to 20lbs heavier ..WTF...i need to go on a diet and get back to my original weight, i don't want to be large and in charge , i prefer small and rules over all. I've decided to make an online journal of my efforts at losing my "lazy fat" ,so today i pledge to reduce the amount of store bought snacks i have ( small steps), I'm also trying to include more fruits on vegetables in my diet, as well as include more movement in my daily activities.

Exercise is important -- I'm going to try and at least accomplish half hour each day and work my way up from that.So here's wishing me good luck in my mission...me hopes me is successful.

I cooked

2010-04-13T06:04:00.000-07:00

Now that my PC is kaput, I can honestly say that my hours yesterday were spent doing what i do best...eating....which was followed by some "exercise" --I probably looked like a wild ape jumping around-- but hey anything to get the muscles moving and i did work up a sweat. Then i had my bucket shower, I call it that cause there is never running water, after this refreshing bath, i got the urge to cook....yup inspiration just hits me hard sometimes, so before i knew what was happening i was in the kitchen like a crazed housewife chopping and stirring and sometimes slipping in an occasional drink ...of ...juice..lol... the end result... Tofu in red curry sauce with corn and mushrooms served over a hot bed of rice . I brought some for lunch, i didn't take a pic thou but OMGAGA this vege dish was awesome, i cant wait to have It for lunch lol.......yummy

Elections

2010-04-13T05:53:00.000-07:00

Its 2 years early but its here and by the grace of the almighty above, i hope that the present administration is booted out. I've seen too many crimes, too many injustices under this administration and don't get me started to the blatant corruption. I just pray that we as citizens stop voting in creed and color and look at the real issues. You may have guessed I'm for UNC/COP/TOP alliance, its the only way forward. I'm not a big political pundit or activist but i do have some common sense and i intend to use whenever the almighty Patrick decides to release the election date. Lets hope some of his blind followers see the light....

Computer Dead

2010-04-13T05:35:00.000-07:00

My computer is dead * wails uncontrollably* * regains composure* The stupid UPS went berserk and probably fried the motherboard....The UPS was leaking, uggghhhh and to think it was supposed to protect the PC not cause its death. The good news however is that there is a great chance that all my files can be recovered, the other bad news ( yes there is more) I wont be able to afford a motherboard till maybe next two months, as per usual money is tight . For the time being I'll get my daily fix here on work, and whenever i can on my brothers PC. So there it is , I'm a wolf without a pc, hmmmm the bright side? I will have loads more time to get stuff done around the house and who knows if I'm really motivated drop in an hour of exercise....I'm way too fat for my height ( I'm a shorty)

Smoke

2010-04-07T04:30:00.000-07:00

OMGAGA ( that's my new catch phrase) it seems like the entire East of Trinidad is covered by smoke, its horrible...really I'm so freaking scared its not funny...the sky is dark Grey not with rain clouds but with haze ...the sun in the sky is an eerie dull yellow...did i wake up in some post apocalyptic version of my reality where mankind screwed the earth over so many times that she picked up smoking to deal with the stress? I'm worried about the people with sinus and extra sensitive eyes ...fortunately I'm not one of those, but gosh it will be stress for them. Lets PRAY and HOPE that rains soon come to heal the land.

My PC home is giving trouble *sobs softly* it wont get past the windows loading screen, I'm sad and worried , all my files...ALL...is on that PC if i lose everything i will surely keel over and die for a couple hours. My friend says he will take a look at it later, maybe windows need reinstalling or something, i just pray it can be fixed and fixed soon.

Something is wrong with my bed, it just doesn't feel as comfy as it used to. I flipped, turned and rotated the mattress but nothing seems to work, everything in my rooms just feels dusty and hott, no matter how many times i sweep, mop, and wipe it down it just feels dusty..i guess i can blame the weather for having me a bit on the edge lately (BTW i don't have AC in my room although I'm seriously trying to save for one) so for now I'll have to suck it up and do my rain dance, which just doesn't seem to be working...guess i need to put a lil more waist into it....

Holidays are over

2010-04-05T17:40:00.000-07:00

The Easter Holidays are over and tomorrow its back to the grind of work, am i sad.....yup...I'll miss the ability to stay up at night and sleep in the mornings. But i can always look forward to the weekend, and say what its a short week so no need to freak out, Saturday will be here before i know it.

I've noticed that whenever i am on vacation, my brain literally shuts down...weird...before this afternoon i was anything but energetic, now I'm filled with energy and able to complete a list of chores plus pack my bag for work....I'm in work mode now, all geared up and ready to *gulp* drive there in the morning...wish me luck!!

Best Song Ever

2010-04-01T18:52:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0uzuNt2XImc

That's the link to one of my favest song on the album...its a sad one, but I'm a sucker for sad

Garbage: Beautiful Garbage

2010-04-01T18:23:00.000-07:00

Garbage is one of my most favest bands, i thought i had heard every single song by them..but was i ever wrong. While cleaning up my PC's HD i came across their album "Beautiful Garbage" OMG I've fallen in love all over again....every song is super awesome and i cant get enough....My new obsession is this album :) Don't you just love when life throws you a great little morsel of happy ....yummy...

Not in the mood

2010-04-01T17:42:00.000-07:00

Uggghhhh the place is just getting hotter as the days go by. I'm in no mood to write, i feel down....my GF has been giving not too subtle hints that I've lost my romantic side, that I've somehow gotten so caught up in the everyday activities of life, that I'm no longer putting the "extra effort" into our relationship.....I think she is right on so many levels...I'm so caught up that i don't even have time for myself...but at the end of the day its like i accomplished nothing, most of my time is spent on the PC...on Facebook, reading comics, watching cartoons....its all i do....i need to get away from this computer and set aside time for realworld activities...i guess in a sense she is right...I'm glad she feels comfortable enough to come up to me and discuss the problem so that we can both find a solution..i guess its time to put my 2 cents in ....

Graphics

2010-03-29T19:52:00.000-07:00

I'm really into graphics now, its my passion but i still mark it as a hobby. According to my pals online I'm good at it, so starting from today I'll be posting up works that i've done, either of myself or friends...so here goes. I had some time on my hands cause I'm on Holidays (* more on that later) my friend Nick had given me this pic ages ago to tweak and i finally did it. He liked it but isn't into the flowers scene , I on the other hand think its quite awesome that's why i chose it as my first piece.

October Project

2010-03-26T19:13:00.000-07:00

Sometimes when I'm really sad, or in one of those depressed moods I turn up my Pc and listen to October Project. The haunting voice, the sad lyrics, the mellow beats...somehow it makes me feel better. Gives me a feeling that I'm not alone , that someone out there is/went through what I'm going through and survived. I will also. Guess what I'm listening to right now?...

I feel as if I'm back in Secondary School , people snickering behind my back , judging me, forming an opinion without even saying a single word to me. Sometimes i get so tired of humans, i feel like going away, somewhere far away, to escape reality, to escape the evils of this life. For now music will be my escape, and my will to survive will be my sword .....

London Pics

2010-03-26T19:01:00.000-07:00

Here are just a few snapshots from my London Trip, it was the best time of my life....most of the time i was there, i was bloody dumbfounded. I'll remember it for the rest of my mortal years. I'm hoping to go back one day, in the winter---- the cold is awesome and i love the fashion, made me feel good about myself :)

Its Holiday time!!!

2010-03-26T18:43:00.000-07:00

I have the next week off and I'm so excited ...why you ask? Its cause i get to sleep late for once, to lie in bed and just sleep....i know ..i get excited for the smallest reasons lol

Love

2010-03-25T08:35:00.000-07:00

Love is the object of infinite ideas...movies, stories, songs, art, expression, movement, speech , i can go on and on , bottom line is Love has affected them all. This emotion is so grand that many crave it to be happy, many blame it for their unhappiness, and many hate it cause they presume they cant have it. To me love exists in everything, there are many types of love , many degrees of love but each of us as humans have experience love or given love in our lifetime. I'm no expert at love, i rather burn my lips with hot tea than claim to be one and dish out advice. But love fascinates me, it takes my breath away , shocks me into reality and sometimes leaves me in the fetal position. Why am i on this topic anyway? It cause last night i had a vivid , HD, full color, surround sound dream of my EX....it has me uneasy....nothing sexual, in the very least it was the opposite, just us talking and me being very very angry, i was so angry i wanted to literally kill my EX with my bare hands, but i didn't , i just sat there seething with anger, i awoke --angry--- when i did calm myself down, I was left with a feeling of guilt. How could at one point in my life, I loved my EX with all my heart and soul, i would do anything to please her, anything to be near her, anything to talk to her, I needed her in my life ...back then...now all i feel is hate towards her, genuine hate ... how did it move from one extreme to another? Sometimes i feel guilty, sometimes i feel dirty about hating her. But at the end of the day luckily I don't regret that we were together, cause she taught me more life lessons albeit the hard way in those 2 years that i would have ever learned on my own. I became a stronger, better thinking, caring individual because of her and for that i am thankful. I guess sometimes ghosts of the past do haunt you....

Obsession

2010-03-24T05:50:00.000-07:00

Obsession: –noun the domination of one's thoughts or feelings by a persistent idea, image, desire, etc.

Guess which band I'm currently obsessed over? *jeopardy theme song plays* ...What is Florence and the Machine? Yup that's right, wanna know how i became so obsessed with this band? Of course you do..lol.. It all started while I was shopping in London ( did i fail to mention I took a trip there more to follow in a later post) walking into a store called "Brand Store" yup you guessed it everything in there was some sort of brand, walking up to the coats i was engulfed in a voice and beat that i had never heard before but instantly fell in love with it, i lingered around the store hoping that it was the radio and i would be fortunate enough to get wind of the singer, but unfortunately the store seemed to be playing a CD, i made a decision that i would be bold and ask the cashier who it was, but another roadblock, the cashier hardly spoke English ( in fact most of the ppl in England hardly speak English)

I left the store disappointed, hand full of shopping bags but disappointed .....I tried to memorize some of the lyrics to Google it but in typical Duran fashion i couldn't for the love of hades remember anything, just the haunting melody. My trip to London ended and i boarded my BA flight, it was a day flight and i was tired, i plugged in my head phones and guess what was the first song i heard when i clicked play ....yup BOOM...what are the chances of that happening? I listen to their album over and over again and by the end of the flight had memorized most of their lyrics. I Dl-ed it as soon as i got home and now everyday its what i play and i am not anywhere close to getting fed up. Every time i hear them i am taken straight back to London, its my personal getaway. In fact the songs give me so much confidence i listen to it while I'm driving to clam my nerves. Hooray for Florence and The Machine...me loves them.

Why does it not rain?

2010-03-24T04:40:00.000-07:00

Reports coming in from my friends in the south land and errr umm central land state that last night there were heavy showers of rain in their area....only one question comes to mind and that is "Why in Zeus name didn't it rain in San Juan?" I feel so left out :( I love you rain but it seems that i'll have to wait a bit longer to feel your cold drops. Trinidad is burning down, the hills are nothing but brown dirt, no tress, no shrubs nothing...it scares me for 2 reasons , numero uno reason : The hills are ugly and i suddenly feel as if i'm living in some hot desert isle where water is more precious than gold, there is a eerie feeling in the pit of my stomach that the price food is going to skyrocket even more, and the second reason ...when the rains do come the landslips that will follow will truly be some of which this country has never seen. In the meantime i will dance my rain dance.

Footprints

2010-03-23T05:21:00.000-07:00

Those are my actual footprints. I took this pic on the beach, early morning right after the sunrise. I was never a beach person, i prefer the river, but the more i go to the beach, the more i fall in love with it. The constant motion of the waves completely enthralls me , i sometimes get lost within the sound.

I walk alone on the beach it gives me time to think---i often think that each person is smaller than a grain of sand in the big scope of things, yet we sometimes act as though the world revolves around us. It pushes me back to reality, often giving me a new perspective. I can hardly wait to go back.

Dave's Birthday

2010-03-23T04:58:00.000-07:00

My best friend for life Dave celebrated his Birthday on March 11th , some pals and i got together and threw him a beachouse lime. It was super awesome, cooking, drinking, running into the ocean....sober of course. It was a great lime . I hope he had an awesome time, cause i sure as hell did. Above is a pic of the cake , we literally set it on fire with all those candles...lol.. and that KFC box is mines...never could get enough of their pop corn chicken :P. Its good to be back blogging.

Good Monday Morning

2010-03-22T04:31:00.000-07:00

How are you today? I am great, wanna know why? ....I'm driving!!! Yup i am actually driving a car, after years of being scared and worried about getting my license , i finally did last year and since then I've been practicing on and off on the roadway, finally my brother bought a car and i have his permission to use it whenever i want, permitting he doesn't need it. I drove it to work today, yup from San Juan to Caroni on the h-way. Boom who rocks? This wolf certainly does...well for today at least.

Thursday come so fast?

2010-03-04T18:35:00.000-08:00

Isn't this week flying by , I'm simply shocked that its almost Friday as i write this-- as happy as i am, i cant help but to wonder where does the time indeed go ? Lets not get into all that hoopla at this point, I'm in a worried state....why u ask...is it because I've run out of snacks? That i no longer can get my favest aloo pie before i go to work because for some reason the lady stopped selling?... nope ....its the water situation in Trinidad, i severely doubt that the population is taking the gravity of it seriously. We had a weak rainy season last year, and this dry season is abnormally hot and dry, everywhere is either dusty, smoky ,hazy, or a combination of all three. I try my utmost best to conserve, i feel like i should be going to the grocery and hoard bottles of water before people start getting smart to the situation. In the meantime i will continue to pray for rain, my last resort would be a rain dance, for that I'll need a grass skirt....I'll work on it....whats up with all the earthquakes? is it the new fad....grrr... me so scared....

Purpose

2010-03-03T05:25:00.000-08:00

Have you ever felt like you have everything you need but something major is still missing? That's what i am feeling like right now, I live a comfortable life..I have a great family, good friends, i've found love, got food to eat, shelter,a job, loads of ways to entertain myself....but something is missing and i can't put my finger on it. Am i crazy? am i lost? or am i just human? I miss blogging....miss writing all the silly things that happen in my life, but i seriously need to find a purpose in my life.

A purpose and a plan. Last night after 2 months of procrastination i finally made my "things to accomplish this year" list. I'll probably type it all up here later, i came across 2009 list and i'm proud to say that i accomplished 80% of the things i set out to do. Am i proud ? O hell yes...so now lets looks forward to 2010, i dubbed the year of the Earthquake. I pray that Trinidad and Tobago remains blessed :)

Blink Blink

2010-02-24T08:21:00.000-08:00

WOW been so long , had a couple trbls about posting

Blink was down for what seemed forever
I went to England for sometime
I went to a beach house for sometime
Life has gotten way to busy for me
I'm trying to be less inclined to sit in front the PC

I missed blogging and I'm happy to finally be back have a million things i wanna write, but first off WTF is up with all the spam comments? I mean seriously grrrrrrr

Will be back later on lunch having my PB&J i made all by myself

Where did october go?

2009-11-01T17:39:00.000-08:00

I skipped October , why?...beats me....been busy as heck. Many things happened. Lets do some bullet points for now

Divali was awesome
My gf and i are now committed
I went Grenada on a business trip and had loads of fun
I started to read
I got a promotion and a raise
I planned a surprise party
I had a mental breakdown
I got some news that will probably change my life
I skipped Halloween
I lost my creative flame

Will elaborate on these later on for now my bed calls....

Job Update

2009-09-28T17:44:00.000-07:00

Remember i was offered an accounting position in my company? I declined it due to the fact that our warehouse manager left and now there is a vacancy there...I'm going to apply for it * crosses fingers* Hopefully i will get through , I mean its not that difficult of a job. Its a small company....I hope i get it, there is a raise that comes along with it :)

O what a day

2009-09-28T17:26:00.000-07:00

My four day weekend was umm restful...i was sick, so most of the time i was high on NyQuil and Vicks sleeping the day away...i enjoyed it very much, been so long since i slept for that period of time. I'm much better now although i have a lingering cough and a slight headache that comes and goes, but other than that A-OK.

Today marked the first of many days i would be travelling to work, woke up at 5am and instantly got down to getting ready , by 6.30 i was out of the house and waiting for a taxi. In order to reach to my employers establishment I have to take a taxi and 2 maxis...the crowds, the pushing, the shoving, the tight places...its all very stressful ...in addition to that there is a 10 min walk into the settlement , so you can imagine by the time i reached the front gate I'm just about ready to collapse. Leaving home at 6.30 I arrived at 7.45 not bad. Monday was long and dragged out. Now we are one member of staff shorter the weight of work is split up among who is left. Uggghhh it sucks. Monday totally kicked my ass and handed it to me on a sliver platter, all the while pointing and laughing..I hope to god Tuesday doest do the same.

I'm feeling ill....

2009-09-23T06:34:00.000-07:00

My throat is sore , my temperature is slightly up and i have these sneezing spates that last like 2 mins every time they hit. Do i have the flu? Cold? H1N1? I hope to god none of the above and its just my body saying I'm tired. I'm fighting this best way i know how...tea...rest...and vitamin C....I hate to take pills, if the symptoms persist or get worse then I'll pop 2 NyQuil and hope in the morning to be better. This week is by far the best..Holiday on Monday, Holiday on Thursday and an off day from work on Friday..that gives me a cool 4 days mini vacation. Most likely it will be spent sleeping and cleaning. Diwali is upon us so my mom wants the surroundings as clean as it can possibly get...I'm fasting right now..amazingly i don't miss the meat, although buying food outside is very limited to a vege sub or doubles..but i hope to experiment with as much veges dishes as possible ...have to say its not as bad as i thought it would have been. i feel much healthier though without the meat in my system. Today just can't seem to go fast enough. I'm so not in the mood to type although i have so many things swirling around in my head. Just a not to self when i go home..update about job, love life and food. Right now i have to get back to doing work.

Open Letters

2009-09-15T06:24:00.000-07:00

Dear MET Office,

Do you guys ever get tired of being wrong all the time?

Respectfully,

Icewolf

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Good Day Universe,

Why do you find it necessary to kick me while I'm down? Were you not hugged as a child?
I would appreciate it while I'm lying face down on the floor that you pat me on the head and say hey no one believes you fainted, we all know you tripped now get up. Instead of pointing and laughing, then kicking me in the stomach and running away.

Thanking you in advance.

Icewolf

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Dear Patrick Manning,

One letter won't be enough. This is just a line to say your budget makes me think I'm living in King Aurthur's time frame, all that taxing can't be good for the skin.

No respect,

Icewolf

The case of the missing Shades

2009-09-03T09:30:00.000-07:00

I lost my favest pair of shades * sobs quietly* i had it hooked on my bag, and then when i got into the car it wasn't there anymore. Its lost. Alone out there in the cruel world, smashed or worse found and being worn by some big face person stretching its sides...my poor shades. Today i took out another pair, a sleek sporty one...nuh really my thing but i have no choice its either that or face the harsh sunlight ( my previous one were uber cool aviator shades) It just goes to show you'll never miss the water till the well runs dry..and how i miss the water..umm... shades...My new mission is to try and locate an exact replica. Wish me luck.

Super Hero Squad

2009-08-25T10:29:00.000-07:00

Marvel is set to unleash yet another cartoon series based on their ever popular super heroes. One catch though, this particular incarnation of super powered people are aimed at younger kids. Its based on a toy line of the same name. As you can see from the art work they are sickeningly cute. Aimed at kids or not i am super excited , and cant wait to see the end product. Yes I'm one of those fan boys that will walk blindly into another X-men movie because its just that an X-men movie, crappy storyline and everything. So feast your eyes upon these cute little critters and join me in bated anticipation of it. *Squeals like a girl*

The main characters who will be in every episode is at the top

How could you not like them

The toy line which it is based on

Check Storm...*blinks eyes lovingly*

Yea and so.....

2009-08-25T05:58:00.000-07:00

Lat night i called my GF to say goodnight around 10.15pm, she sounded angry that i woke her up from sleep. I said a quick goodnight- sorry i woke you up and ran off like a scared puppy. It left me with a "brrr?" feeling. O well i over that and i over salted my lunch. Icck. Yea. I forgot i had already put salt to season the chicken, and low and behold i dash some salt in the pot again while it was cooking.The end product, was a bit salty, but if you took a bite of chicken and a spoonful of veges at the same time they canceled each other out. What did i make? Ginger chicken, stir fry veges and noodles. It cut good.

Had the weirdest dream last night, was in some sort of secondary school reunion, all my friends and enemies were there, all with huge accomplishments and i there with nothing to my name. It made me feel so small and insignificant. What is this dream trying to tell me? Whatever it is though I'm not taking it on cause i woke up feeling awful about my self. I have learned that i shouldn't compare myself to others, it only leaves me with a feeling of disappointment. Instead i should look at them and say hey i wanna be like that and work towards it, much better than beating myself up about it.

No More hungry...

2009-08-24T10:18:00.000-07:00

My co worker just gave me a Kiss Brownie...so that will def cut my hunger till i reach home. yay for me.I just got word on a new animated Marvel show more on this later.

Where have i been?

2009-08-24T09:38:00.000-07:00

Raindrops on the Window

The stillness of Beauty

Ripples on the Ground

And the flowers were happy

From the tin roof

Hitting the ground

The neighbor's Fig Plant

Splish Splash on the ground

The trees were happiest..

A Titanic Moment

Diffused Beauty...

Everywhere and nowhere at the same time. School has been a bitch with heels on, work recently have become the slaps you receive if you anger that bitch.So i dropped offline for a week or 2 but now that some sort of normalcy has returned I'm back. I missed blogging so much. I had loads to write about....had being the keyword, but its all forgotten now so I'll have to start fresh .This weekend rocked, all that rain and me home...sweetness. I did have my graphics arts exam..i will keep my lips zipped until i get the results but here's hoping i did well. Saturday went shopping with the GF in all that rain, it was fun. Sunday i stayed home and slept. Weekends like those are so relaxing , just lying on my bed thinking about nothing, doing nothing...blissfully unaware that time is passing, in and out of sleep. so comforting. Haven't had one of those in a very long time , i took pics too :). Here's hoping i have a great week ahead. I'm hungry i have no lunch :( o well diet diet diet.

District 9...

2009-08-23T20:14:00.001-07:00

This movie touched me more than i admitted. It really put into perspective how we as humans can be so animalistic while trying to appear as caring creatures. For the average trini although it pains me to say this they won't enjoy it because of the lack of action and sex. But for us who can enjoy a great storyline this movie is heaven sent, a bit graphic but it adds to the rawness of the film. Check it out. But don't carry your gf/bf unless they are really into the sci fi thing. I took mines and the hard looks i got during the movie made me afraid for the lights to come on :P

I made dinner...

2009-08-23T20:09:00.000-07:00

Well i didn't do it all by myself the gf helped me. It was awesome sharing the kitchen with her. She's a bit messy, but i can live with it :P. It was a rainy afternoon, we made pan fired chicken breast, potato wedges and yummy garlic sauce. It went down good. I'm really startignt o love this cooking thing.

For breakfast...

2009-08-23T20:08:00.001-07:00

I'm trying to eat healthy, here i have granola, yogurt and some blueberries the gf brought me. I thought it would have been yuck, but it was yum...i can have it every day ! All that natural sweetness gave me a sugar rush.

Check this out.....

2009-08-23T19:54:00.000-07:00

I've been experimenting with cooking, nothing too drastic...just simple dishes that i can handle in the kitchen. Here are a couple of pics i took of the lunch i made. Chicken and stir fry veges. It was yummy. Lets hope i can continue along this path. The pics aint all that.

Busy as a bee on coffee and redbull

2009-08-13T11:13:00.000-07:00

Where have i been? Uggggh busy as hell, these days its like i have no time whatsoever for myself. i have a ton of pics to post up, as i have been on a snapping spree of sorts. I've really gotten into the cooking thing and have been cooking my own lunch all week. i sometimes cook dinner for myself as well, my mother looks proud and I'm happy she is around since i seldom clean up after my self :P yay for moms that do dishes...and i mess up alot of dishes. Have a ton of things to write about but I'll get to it when i go home, now its time to get back to work.

Brrrrr?

2009-08-06T05:38:00.000-07:00

OMG I was just offered a new position in the company i work for.....acccck...what to do? I love what i do now, but that position is a much easier one. Its accounting assistant ...I have no formal accounts quals but i was trained by the accountant and its pretty straight forward. So what shall i do? If i don't take it , the other guy will. There is no increase in salary or anything, but much less work....sigh....wha to do?

Old People weak?

2009-08-03T08:48:00.000-07:00

It was my unfortunate experience to chose today to go to the bank...although i was warned by my banking buddy , how chaotic it gets, i said to myself, how bad can it be...it's old people they are frail, slow moving....hell if i could eat my words i would. It was like a scene out of a horror movie, you know the scene where everyone is running from the monster, that's the scene....people were pressed up against the glass for god's sake...pressed up!!! When security opened the door...kaboom! I dunno where these old people got the energy, but they just started to trample over everything including me....i was horrified, scared and horrified.....slightly amused...but more terrified....after locating a line, counting the heads before me there were a total of twenty....it took forever for me to get to the front to conduct my transaction. Luckily for me i had my headphones so passing the time wasn't that bad, i did feel bad for some of the old folks thou, no seating accommodation whatsoever for them...the clerks were extremely slow moving, so their wait was going to be a much longer one than mines. Getting out of the bank was the best feeling ever....I don't ever want to see old people being portrayed as frail and sickly, cause from what i saw, they could have taken me out, and i betcha there were a couple who wanted to :).

Garbage

2009-08-02T11:59:00.000-07:00

What i cooked...

2009-07-31T06:33:00.000-07:00

Remember the Fish and Potatoes i made well here are the pics....I am NOT a food photographer. Looks yummy none the less. That spoon should have been a fork. lol

I've got a story...

2009-07-31T05:30:00.000-07:00

Yesterday my friend Dave related a story to me of how his neighbor was robbed. Broad daylight while the guy was walking home he was robbed. This country really gone to the dogs, but there is a sliver lining. The car the bandit was driving shut down, since they guy was only a few houses away from his uncle he ran and got help. Arriving at the scene, the car was locked and bandit gone. The police was called in, the neighbour was taken to the police station where who would he bounce up? MR BANDIT, reporting his car stolen....yuh see how them bandit smart. The police confronted him and he denied it. When he was searched, his removable deck from his car was on his possession,( he doesn't want to get it stolen?) how it got there he doesn't know, after some interrogation he confessed, the neighbours stolen phone and wallet was already given to one of his partners. He was arrested, finally some good news eh.

Homework?

2009-07-30T06:29:00.000-07:00

Graphic Arts class is later and once again , i did not do my home work....is some sort of pattern forming? I just didn't feel like going on Corel Draw to outline a couple clip arts...ugghhh, not only was i feeling lazy, using that particular software gets me all angry, I'm so in tuned with Photoshop's keyboard short cuts that when i attempt it ( by habit) it causes Corel Draw to go berserk. I guess I'll have to make up some sort of excuse , or go to class extra early and rush it down. Sadly i think it'll be the second option. O well , I'll learn one way or the other. Hooray for learning, and graphic arts.

Rainy rainy yea yea

2009-07-30T05:43:00.000-07:00

Kelly Clarkson's new single "Already gone" has me sprung, I know it sounds like "Halo" by Beyonce...maybe that's why i took to it so quickly....why am i writing about this? I have no idea..lol.. it just popped into my head. I miss Michelle Branch, I love her music...gawd where am i going with the post? Anyways Last night was incredibly awesome, I cooked...yes I get the sudden urge now and then. I made fish, potatoes and creamy garlic sauce....surprise surprise.....I almost fainted when i tasted it, twas good, even brought some for lunch......I took a pic also, will post it up later.After i made dinnerlunch...I played in the rain at twilight....amazing as usual...showered, crawled into my bed and just enjoyed the warmness it. Mom made sawine, that was a plus. Rainy days are always the best.

2009-07-29T14:31:00.000-07:00

Above: Mr zee zee

Here are some pic from my Graphic Arts class, ok ok i know some of it sucks like major ass but considering i did it all frm scratch , I'm sort of proud, not of the cube thou...aint no way in hell i can be proud of that ..lol...

A Steel Pan

A benz..lol..

Mr cube...lol..

Slipping Slowly

2009-07-29T11:06:00.000-07:00

I've probably said this before but GARBAGE is my all time favorite band. I find comfort in Shirley Manson's voice, there's a certain rawness in her lyrics, and the actual sound of her band just pulls at my emotions. Even though some of her songs are outright depressing, i do find some sort of comfort in it which makes me feel better. I can relate. Lying on my bed i always get lost in dark fantasy worlds , sitting on a raft on the stormy ocean, listening, i find calm, that's the power of music.

Are you angry?

2009-07-29T10:29:00.000-07:00

My GF thinks I'm a beast, at least that the impression I'm getting. Sitting yesterday quietly, enjoying the silence between us ,she cautiously asked" are you angry?" to which i replied no, " are you sure?" umm yes...somethings wrong why are you so quiet... are you upset over something? no I'm not...OK....Few minutes later, "tell me what has you so upset". umm I'm not upset, come on i know you, why are you angry did i do something? No I'm not angry.... It went on like this. Clearly me sitting quietly is an indication of anger. Later that night, I'm on msn chatting with her, the same questions are being asked "why I'm angry, why I'm upset, was it something she said or did?" Is this the outward projection that i give, as a very angry person? So angry my gf constantly needs to be reassured that my silence is not hiding a brimming, about to explode pot of anger? Suddenly i feel a mixer of depression and being ashamed, I'm trying really hard to be "happy' to the point of faking it, but it seems that I'm already fitted in to a emo mold...the song of my life *Trick is to keep breathing* by garbage.

Meditate

2009-07-28T11:02:00.000-07:00

In order to try and quell my rage, and bring some positivity into my sometimes dark life, I've decided to get back to my meditating roots. It was a regular thing for me a couple years ago, when i was in my uncontrollable state. It helped, so much so that i didn't find the need to continue until now, when i am once again letting my anger get the best of me.So far I've done 3days. I shower, take off all the lights, light a single scented candle, let the music of Enya softly hum in the background. Sitting quietly, i focus on my breathing, then clear my head of all thoughts, i then repeat "i am at peace with myself and my surroundings" this leads into a talk with god, then me focusing on my goals. It immensely relaxing, so far my anger fuse has gotten longer, awhile to get angry, but every little helps. Lets see how it goes.

Yummy yummy i got love in my tummy

2009-07-28T10:47:00.000-07:00

Its thundering, there are flashes of lightening and I'm walking on the electrically charged air :), Just came back from lunch with my hunny,its amazing what a little interaction with a loved one during working hours can do. I feel as if I've just gotten here, yup that's the kind of energy I'm carrying.If the rain falls this will be the best Tuesday ever! On the topic of weather, this has got to be the quietest Hurricane Season I remember. Nothing , not even a tropical disturbance lurks on the horizon. I'm not complaining or anything, but what if they decide to make up for lost time next year? and by "they" i refer to the hurricanes.

Its Mickey's Magic Show

2009-07-28T05:55:00.000-07:00

O my lorsh, if i hear that " its mickeys mickeys magic, mickeys mickeys magic, o yea" one more time on the radio i am going to serious have a BF ( bitchfit) . When i close my eyes i hear it , i see mickey running around, and Minnie in the background dancing, ugggghhhh they are driving me insane, i swear i know every single line to that commercial. Honest.

Coup

2009-07-27T12:04:00.000-07:00

Today being the anniversary of the attempted coup by the Jamat al muslimeen, the office was abuzz with talk of how each person recalls it. I was like 7 when it occurred. I remember something coming over the television, my mom telling me to run up the road and call my dad, who was liming by the bar...sadly when i reported to him that the red house was burning down i was greeted with a whole lot of laughter from the other men there, asking if i was crazy, I kept insisting over and over again with such urgent in my voice the barman , was forced to turn on his T.V, then realizing that it was true, the bar emptied as everyone ( drunk and sober) headed off home. The days to follow, i remember the neighbors coming together to ' lock down" the village, no one could get in or out. There was alot of looting, and in my tiny head, free candy. Many of the warehouses where I'm located was looted, I remember the chocolates, perfume and Vienna sausages....then my mom took us to our grandparents house in central, where we stayed till everything went back to normal, my dad stayed home. It was an exciting time for me, i was none the wiser of how dangerous the situation was. I'm thankful that it didn't turn out much worse. I've sure seen alot of stuff in my life time.

Its 18

2009-07-27T09:10:00.000-07:00

lately the gf and i have been at each others throat. The slightest thing would set me off and i blow up like a huge balloon and pop, my temper gets the better of me. Sitting one day,i wondered how did we move from i cant get enough of you to i cant stand you. I asked for time away to gather my thoughts, but couldn't get through an entire day without calling her. We needed to talk, to sit , face to face and talk. But that didn't occur till Saturday, when i vomited all my feelings that i hid. Sitting there completely embarrassed at what i just said, waiting fro her to say its over, but she didn't, instead the look in her eyes invited me to say more. And i did, we both talked , alot was said, alot was accomplished. Today marks 18 mnths since we have been together, and I'm looking at it a a new beginning.I've made a list of things i need to do, in order to keep the spark alive. So to my love, HAPPY 18. ( she sometimes reads)

The cash problem

2009-07-27T08:57:00.000-07:00

That dollar below looks awfully real, like i could print it up and buy myself a pack of corn curls.I feel the sudden urge to say i wont, so no one will label me a potential counterfeiter. On the topic of money,i keep hearing that inflation is on a downturn, and prices should be following but have yet to see it in the supermarkets or feel it in my wallet. Is the gov't feeding the public false information or are business owners just plain greedy? Maybe we are the ones to blame because we don't exercise our buying power, i know of people who will buy regress if a tin of juice was 5 bucks last week and 8 this one.It doesn't matter to them. If we take a stand and say no, would the store owners be forced to decrease the price? but alas for every one person who says no, there are 3 probably who says 'yea whatever" I really hope that prices decrease so i can save some money, right now my spending savings are nil, i blew it all Saturday, was worth it though.Maybe soon, I'll begin to see a decrease if so hooray, if not, I'll just have to continue to bite the dollar as hard as possible.

Weekend

2009-07-27T07:12:00.000-07:00

This weekend flew past like a crazy wild duck .It was filled with emotional highs and lows, sadness, gladness and a bit of madness.Where shall i start Friday was busy hell in work, I had another large project on my plate with a deadline date of Today, luckily with determination and loads of help from the administrator, i completed it on time, skipped lunch, breakfast and all my water breaks but i did it, and am very proud. So technically i can count Friday as a good day since i was so occupied with that project the day went by pretty much unnoticed. I went home, fought with my gf, ate cause i was so depressed, did my laundry at 10pm because i was unable to sleep, i even hung it out also, had to fight up with a couple toads roaming the yard, but i did it none the less. Saturday, i headed off to Chaguanas, with gf in tow. Got my brand new Mohawk hairstyle, had lunch and blew out $1000.00 on unnecessary stuff, but i sort of enjoyed spending that cash, i had been saving it for about 3 months now so it was good to treat the gf and I to lunch and a couple other goodies, now i'll start from the beginning, all over again. Gf and i had a "discussion", went rather well, more on that later. Sunday was errrr, ummm...a lazy day, i pretty much spent the entire day eating everything in sight, and getting ready for the week ahead. Gf came over we hung out, and now I'm in work once again....excitement at its highest...lol...

Who are you to judge

2009-07-25T06:38:00.000-07:00

As i stand here ,the good within me glowing
I'm stripped naked, every part of my soul showing
The human, the animal
The dark and the pure
The saint, the joker, the fool and the whore

am i not a child of god
One born of this earth
Do i not have a mother
who has given me birth
I sit in silence and pray
Am i not allowed to seek god out in my way?

Who shall speak and read me my rights
Who will cover my eyes and show me night
Who shall bind my hands, and cut off my tongue
Push me in the square where i belong
Who with their weapons, their force and their lies
Who with their false hope and their alibis

you?
With words of ignorance
with words of hate
with your darken light,and your blind faith
You
with the uneducated mind...
you will not be given any of my time

My battleline is drawn, its a circle you see
It prevents your hate from getting to me
so keep your acid tongue and swallow you spit
Cause see me here I'll never quit
I'll rise like the Phoenix over and over again
You are the person i no longer call friend
For you are not god, and you cannot judge
This is my stance and i will never budge.

Last Hp Rant: Dumbledore

2009-07-23T10:07:00.000-07:00

Why I love him:

He can kick anyones ass in the wizarding world
He calls Voldemort - Tom- that's just a kick to the balls
Has a pet phoenix
Is totally powerful
Has a wry sense of humor

Why I hate him:

I don't the man dead , cant hate him

My HP Rant : The Baddies

2009-07-23T09:49:00.000-07:00

Love: Lord of everything evil
Can talk to snakes
Came back from the dead
Bald and stylin
Makes people scared just by his name
His dramatic hand movements , a little gay but dramatic none the less

Love: They move around in awesome smoke
Doesn't have a heart
Loves Black fashion
Cool Sliver masks
Can go into a store get what they want and not pay for it

Love: Bitchy Attitude
Not scared of Harry potter
Wears Green
Cool Whitish hair
Has Minions

Love: His "arrgh" attitude
His cold stares
The fact everyone knows he is evil but he still works in the ministry ( familiar?)
Carries a Cane

Love: Her hair style
Looks like she crawled out of the grave- sexily
Has a wonderful cackle
Crazy
Speaks softly, then loudly like little red from 2 stupid dogs
Will kill her own mother if voldemort told her to

Love: His voice, so smooth and cold
His " ha don't cross me" attitude
The fact that he swishes his cape all over the place
Genius at everything
His Coat
His dramatic entrances and exits

In case you noticed , there are no hates, that's because i cant hate the baddies, they are awesome.

My HP Rant: Ron

2009-07-23T09:39:00.000-07:00

Why I love him

He's the comedy relief in the whole story
His hair is red
Comes from a strong family base
Sticks up for his friends
Constantly eats
Likes to panic
Oblivious to girls

Why I hate him:

Creepy no color eyelashes
Never gains weight
Clothes - need i say anything else
Ghastly pale
So many wizards and witches in his family but he always screws up spells

My HP Rant: Hermonie

2009-07-23T09:34:00.000-07:00

Why I love her:

She's the brains of the bunch
She knows spells beyond her years
She proves that being muggle born doesn't mean you cant be an awesome witch
She has nice skin
She knows how to keep guys in check
She's just as brave as any of them
She identifies a stupid idea and still goes with it

Why I hate her:

Too bossy
The actress hesitates every time she says a line for a millisecond
Know it all syndrome
Needs to wear something other than grey
Can talk someone to death

My Harry Potter Rant...: Harry

2009-07-23T09:16:00.000-07:00

I'm gonna give a quick run down of the why's i love Harry Potter, cause i feel the hyper, omg, get my wand, throw potion at people, pretend i'm under my invisible cloak feeling fading and its being replaced with "o i have to wait over a year to see the other one" feeling--this refers to both the book and movie.

Why I love him:
He's got that awesome lightening scar
He's the chosen one
He's awkward around girls
He's has a phoenix feather tail wand
He accepted his destiny
He is brave, and loyal
He is adventurous
He is awesome at quidditch
The actor playing the character, has him on key.

Why I hate him:
He's sometimes is full of himself
He's a little slow with putting clues together
He thinks that he is alone, when he is not
He's can be bitchy towards his real friends.
He should learn to get a change of clothing style now and then.

It Happened!!!

2009-07-22T19:35:00.000-07:00

*takes deep breath* It finally happened , i saw it after how many years of waiting , it happened today...no not losing my virginity, that train has passed....Harry Potter!!!! O lord i dunno where to being , how to end, what to put in the middle....calm down, calm down.....Today was the slowest moving day ever each minute felt like an eternity, I probably called my GF 100 times in excitement, she being as excited as i, was only too keen to entertain my random outbursts , finally 4pm happened . but not before the day's work gave me the biggest headache and pain in the neck ever ( buts that a different post) Rushing home i frantically emptied my wardrobe looking for something clean smelling, gosh i have got to learn to wash my going out clothes, it took sometime but i finally found a clean pair of jeans and a tee.The gf wanted to arrive at Movie Towne for 5, yup 5 for a 7pm show ( little too excited or good planning?) she spoke of large crowds, and getting crummy seats, unfortunately for her because of the traffic, we arrived there around 6.10pm , you would think it was good timing, but the line had already started to snake much to my dismay, holding on to the hope that i would be able to push through some of the crowd when they finally started letting people in, i waited, but devil the people are so well mannered and organised, by the time i got into the theater, many of the good seats were taken, i ran up the stairs frantically searching for 2 free seats for us, but everyone was like "sorry this is taken, this is taken, this is taken"...you get the idea, i panicked, running back down i did not want to end up in the pit for 2 reasons---one the gf would probably bitch slap me, and two i hadn't pictured myself starting straight up at harry, so i pounced like a wild child at the next 2 available seats, which were located at the very bottom of the stadium like seating, people would think that these were crappy seats, but o it was not, the screen was well visible, but the sound was amazing, its like nothing i ever experienced in my cinema going life, each rumble shook me to the core, were we getting the full blast of the sound effects, at first the gf didn't like the seats, but after the first ruble, she was like " hmm it ain't that bad" what a save for me. The movie began and i was in Ecstasy for the next 2.5 hours, of course pigging out while at it. The movie was mediocre , not much action , and it deviates alot from the book, but i had to keep reminding myself that it was an adaption , it did however set up alot of open plot lines for the last 2 films, plot lines that will make alot of sense to the common muggle who came out of the movie thinking "huh?", it was as usual a pleasure seeing the actors and actresses with their strong British accents on screen bringing the characters to life,A tear was shed for the headmaster by yours truly, i feel robbed that there was no funeral for him, but hoping that the next movie will begin with one, its only fitting. My appetite is satiated for the while, now i am hoping that Nov 19th 2010 comes here tomorrow.

HAAAAARRRRYYYYYY POOOTTTEEERRRR!!

2009-07-22T05:39:00.000-07:00

TODAY'S THE DAY!!! OMG I AM SO EXCITED, ITS HARRY POTTER DAY! Although i was supposed to stay at home, my unfortunate tummy sickness on Monday ruled that out ..now i have a excruciating wait till the 7pm show in MT, which i think is sold out, only the 10.45 and 12 o'clock shows are advertised. I can't wait, i know there are parts of the movie where i will be disappointed because they never remain true to the book, but to see it all come to life is satisfaction enough for me. My gf bought advanced tickets for us, so now its just to get through this workday then off to the movies at 5.30 to line up ( yes i am that desperate) , I'm so excited i could pee....

huh?

2009-07-22T05:19:00.000-07:00

Does my email addy look desperate and stupid? I found this in my inbox, not spambox, but my inbox.....

hello
l am miss safina madhib I saw your profile today at() and i found you worthy to be mine as some one whom i can lay on his arms as long as love is concern,caressing and teassing you all the night long .if you are interested in knowing more about me and for me to send you some pictures of mine,please contact me thus;(madhibs@yahoo.com)
my dear,l want you to know that distance,age or colour does not matter but love matters alot in life.waiting to hear from you soonest.

madhibs@yahoo.com

Thanks
safina

She speaks of love, sex and not caring how ugly i am...if that aint true love i dunno what is.....o ms Safina ours is a love that will forever be forbidden.O btw she found my profile in a circle...the circle represents the world, my profile is in the world....lol....

D cooking....

2009-07-21T05:02:00.000-07:00

I was ill yesterday, something in the water i think. My stomach was up in arms.It was nice to stay at home, could have done with out the pain though, plus the rain poured after lunch so if that wasn't a sign to crawl into bed i dunno what is. I have good news and bad news, I'll start with the good news first and the bad news will be in a subsequent post. The good-- i thoroughly enjoyed the cooking.I was very if-y whether or not to go and honestly my mind was made up to stay at home, but after some nudging from the gf, pleading from my sisters and a threat from my cousin...i was off. Dressed in my Saturday best, a crew of about 10- we entered the premises like we owned it, all eyes were on us, it was like slow motion but as fast as we walked in we walked out, it was just too hot and humid in there. We settled to lime outside, by the front gate. It was the perfect spot. Swaying to the music, drinks flowing freely, we greeted, laughed and danced with everyone entering. It was hilarious. Didn't get home till about 5am on Sunday.I can honestly say i haven't partied like that in a long time....it was freeing. Have some pics to post up, I'll try my best to look for the non scandalous ones. Sunday, i just lazed around the house hanging out with my cousins who were there, all in all a very relaxing weekend.

Foolish rabbit....

2009-07-17T05:45:00.000-07:00

Friends are so betraying, it makes me sick!!! One word of warning be very careful who you reveal your secrets to, some people find pleasure in dispensing it to other people. The cycle of gossip, and be sure they will add their own 2 cents mix it with your words and get a whole new meaning. Acccckkk i wanna Avada Kedavra someone seriously *pulls out wand*

I can't wait

2009-07-17T05:07:00.000-07:00

There is a great injustice that occurs to me every week. The rain falls on weekdays, and refuses to fall on weekends. Acccckk, i don't know how long this will last though, i pray that there is at least one full blown, rainy weekend in store before the season is over, ah the joys of sleeping all day. Its Friday!!! A beautiful feeling has engulfed me I wanna dance * does crazy movements in chair*, this weekend is going to be awesome, got a big Hindu wedding to attend so that means party from tonite till Sunday. I'm looking forward to Saturday ( cooking/farewell) night , that's when the band will be on, chutney, tassa and rum...lol... ok I'm not a drinker .. I'm just going for the vibe, its been so long since I've been anywhere.It's all about enjoyment. Have to get some "snake oil' for my waist, if my friends have their way, I'll be dancing all night.Must wear loose fitting clothes....

5 more days

2009-07-16T06:42:00.000-07:00

5 more days till Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince.I'm excited and anxious , so far every single one of my pals are excited, not as much as I am, but excited none the less. I've already made plans to stay home on Wednesday 22nd, I have yet to decide whether to head to Movie towne or CC8, one thing's for sure though I MUST buy my tickets in advance, else i will break down and cry.BTW i took "which Harry Potter character are you" quiz on FB and i got Luna Lovegood....It doesn't matter to me I'm glad to be anyone. But i do share her constant dreamy state.

Put that in yuh pipe....

2009-07-16T06:34:00.000-07:00

Today's Word

Commesse....meaning: Gossip and slander, which usually leads to an argument

Example: she only looking innocent, she does cause real commesse in work.

Please use at least once today

I wanna hit him....

2009-07-16T05:41:00.000-07:00

This morning while going through the newspaper the new "goodie" ad catches my eye, well it had to-- it was a full page ad--- First off, I hate kiss cakes, they are dry, chemical and choke like no tomorrow. But i love "goodie", the cream filling, the cake is moist because of it....it brings back so many memories from my childhood ...anways...the ad had this little boy about 7-9 years screwing up his face and pointing like a bad john. I got instantly angered, why? For one this is goodie, the boy should have been happy and secondly the bad boy attitude that everyone complains that the youth has is blatantly being promoted here, which disgusts me. Is the ad trying to convey ...eat a goodie or else I'll kick you ass? The ad is distasteful to say the least, I'm so turned off by it , i pledge that i will not buy another goodie for the rest of my life. I'll eat it if i get it free though..:P

In other news, I have a pet bat...yup... it lives in the stock room. i go turn on the lights, snap my finger twice, it files around then lands on the second to last beam, and hangs there while i go get my papers, notepads or whatever, but today the bat didn't respond to my finger snapping.I thought it must have left, but lo and behold from the warehouse like literally a bat outta hell , sweeps into the room , flies crazily around, sad to say, i yelped and ran. I realize that bats scare me.

The goodie ad still has me vex.

Pothead

2009-07-15T20:26:00.000-07:00

I just spent the greater half of my night, reading about Harry Potter characters on Wiki...its 12.00am and I have work in a couple hours.....hello my name is Duran and i am a addicted to Harry Potter. *crowd repeats--hello duran*