Garbage is one of my most favest bands, i thought i had heard every single song by them..but was i ever wrong. While cleaning up my PC's HD i came across their album "Beautiful Garbage" OMG I've fallen in love all over again....every song is super awesome and i cant get enough....My new obsession is this album :) Don't you just love when life throws you a great little morsel of happy ....yummy...
Showing posts with label Love. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Love. Show all posts
Garbage: Beautiful Garbage
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Love
Love is the object of infinite ideas...movies, stories, songs, art, expression, movement, speech , i can go on and on , bottom line is Love has affected them all. This emotion is so grand that many crave it to be happy, many blame it for their unhappiness, and many hate it cause they presume they cant have it. To me love exists in everything, there are many types of love , many degrees of love but each of us as humans have experience love or given love in our lifetime. I'm no expert at love, i rather burn my lips with hot tea than claim to be one and dish out advice. But love fascinates me, it takes my breath away , shocks me into reality and sometimes leaves me in the fetal position. Why am i on this topic anyway? It cause last night i had a vivid , HD, full color, surround sound dream of my EX....it has me uneasy....nothing sexual, in the very least it was the opposite, just us talking and me being very very angry, i was so angry i wanted to literally kill my EX with my bare hands, but i didn't , i just sat there seething with anger, i awoke --angry--- when i did calm myself down, I was left with a feeling of guilt. How could at one point in my life, I loved my EX with all my heart and soul, i would do anything to please her, anything to be near her, anything to talk to her, I needed her in my life ...back then...now all i feel is hate towards her, genuine hate ... how did it move from one extreme to another? Sometimes i feel guilty, sometimes i feel dirty about hating her. But at the end of the day luckily I don't regret that we were together, cause she taught me more life lessons albeit the hard way in those 2 years that i would have ever learned on my own. I became a stronger, better thinking, caring individual because of her and for that i am thankful. I guess sometimes ghosts of the past do haunt you....
Obsession
Obsession: –noun the domination of one's thoughts or feelings by a persistent idea, image, desire, etc.
Guess which band I'm currently obsessed over? *jeopardy theme song plays* ...What is Florence and the Machine? Yup that's right, wanna know how i became so obsessed with this band? Of course you do..lol.. It all started while I was shopping in London ( did i fail to mention I took a trip there more to follow in a later post) walking into a store called "Brand Store" yup you guessed it everything in there was some sort of brand, walking up to the coats i was engulfed in a voice and beat that i had never heard before but instantly fell in love with it, i lingered around the store hoping that it was the radio and i would be fortunate enough to get wind of the singer, but unfortunately the store seemed to be playing a CD, i made a decision that i would be bold and ask the cashier who it was, but another roadblock, the cashier hardly spoke English ( in fact most of the ppl in England hardly speak English)
I left the store disappointed, hand full of shopping bags but disappointed .....I tried to memorize some of the lyrics to Google it but in typical Duran fashion i couldn't for the love of hades remember anything, just the haunting melody. My trip to London ended and i boarded my BA flight, it was a day flight and i was tired, i plugged in my head phones and guess what was the first song i heard when i clicked play ....yup BOOM...what are the chances of that happening? I listen to their album over and over again and by the end of the flight had memorized most of their lyrics. I Dl-ed it as soon as i got home and now everyday its what i play and i am not anywhere close to getting fed up. Every time i hear them i am taken straight back to London, its my personal getaway. In fact the songs give me so much confidence i listen to it while I'm driving to clam my nerves. Hooray for Florence and The Machine...me loves them.
Yummy yummy i got love in my tummy
Its thundering, there are flashes of lightening and I'm walking on the electrically charged air :), Just came back from lunch with my hunny,its amazing what a little interaction with a loved one during working hours can do. I feel as if I've just gotten here, yup that's the kind of energy I'm carrying.If the rain falls this will be the best Tuesday ever! On the topic of weather, this has got to be the quietest Hurricane Season I remember. Nothing , not even a tropical disturbance lurks on the horizon. I'm not complaining or anything, but what if they decide to make up for lost time next year? and by "they" i refer to the hurricanes.
Its 18
lately the gf and i have been at each others throat. The slightest thing would set me off and i blow up like a huge balloon and pop, my temper gets the better of me. Sitting one day,i wondered how did we move from i cant get enough of you to i cant stand you. I asked for time away to gather my thoughts, but couldn't get through an entire day without calling her. We needed to talk, to sit , face to face and talk. But that didn't occur till Saturday, when i vomited all my feelings that i hid. Sitting there completely embarrassed at what i just said, waiting fro her to say its over, but she didn't, instead the look in her eyes invited me to say more. And i did, we both talked , alot was said, alot was accomplished. Today marks 18 mnths since we have been together, and I'm looking at it a a new beginning.I've made a list of things i need to do, in order to keep the spark alive. So to my love, HAPPY 18. ( she sometimes reads)
It Happened!!!
*takes deep breath* It finally happened , i saw it after how many years of waiting , it happened today...no not losing my virginity, that train has passed....Harry Potter!!!! O lord i dunno where to being , how to end, what to put in the middle....calm down, calm down.....Today was the slowest moving day ever each minute felt like an eternity, I probably called my GF 100 times in excitement, she being as excited as i, was only too keen to entertain my random outbursts , finally 4pm happened . but not before the day's work gave me the biggest headache and pain in the neck ever ( buts that a different post) Rushing home i frantically emptied my wardrobe looking for something clean smelling, gosh i have got to learn to wash my going out clothes, it took sometime but i finally found a clean pair of jeans and a tee.The gf wanted to arrive at Movie Towne for 5, yup 5 for a 7pm show ( little too excited or good planning?) she spoke of large crowds, and getting crummy seats, unfortunately for her because of the traffic, we arrived there around 6.10pm , you would think it was good timing, but the line had already started to snake much to my dismay, holding on to the hope that i would be able to push through some of the crowd when they finally started letting people in, i waited, but devil the people are so well mannered and organised, by the time i got into the theater, many of the good seats were taken, i ran up the stairs frantically searching for 2 free seats for us, but everyone was like "sorry this is taken, this is taken, this is taken"...you get the idea, i panicked, running back down i did not want to end up in the pit for 2 reasons---one the gf would probably bitch slap me, and two i hadn't pictured myself starting straight up at harry, so i pounced like a wild child at the next 2 available seats, which were located at the very bottom of the stadium like seating, people would think that these were crappy seats, but o it was not, the screen was well visible, but the sound was amazing, its like nothing i ever experienced in my cinema going life, each rumble shook me to the core, were we getting the full blast of the sound effects, at first the gf didn't like the seats, but after the first ruble, she was like " hmm it ain't that bad" what a save for me. The movie began and i was in Ecstasy for the next 2.5 hours, of course pigging out while at it. The movie was mediocre , not much action , and it deviates alot from the book, but i had to keep reminding myself that it was an adaption , it did however set up alot of open plot lines for the last 2 films, plot lines that will make alot of sense to the common muggle who came out of the movie thinking "huh?", it was as usual a pleasure seeing the actors and actresses with their strong British accents on screen bringing the characters to life,A tear was shed for the headmaster by yours truly, i feel robbed that there was no funeral for him, but hoping that the next movie will begin with one, its only fitting. My appetite is satiated for the while, now i am hoping that Nov 19th 2010 comes here tomorrow.
HAAAAARRRRYYYYYY POOOTTTEEERRRR!!
TODAY'S THE DAY!!! OMG I AM SO EXCITED, ITS HARRY POTTER DAY! Although i was supposed to stay at home, my unfortunate tummy sickness on Monday ruled that out ..now i have a excruciating wait till the 7pm show in MT, which i think is sold out, only the 10.45 and 12 o'clock shows are advertised. I can't wait, i know there are parts of the movie where i will be disappointed because they never remain true to the book, but to see it all come to life is satisfaction enough for me. My gf bought advanced tickets for us, so now its just to get through this workday then off to the movies at 5.30 to line up ( yes i am that desperate) , I'm so excited i could pee....
5 more days
5 more days till Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince.I'm excited and anxious , so far every single one of my pals are excited, not as much as I am, but excited none the less. I've already made plans to stay home on Wednesday 22nd, I have yet to decide whether to head to Movie towne or CC8, one thing's for sure though I MUST buy my tickets in advance, else i will break down and cry.BTW i took "which Harry Potter character are you" quiz on FB and i got Luna Lovegood....It doesn't matter to me I'm glad to be anyone. But i do share her constant dreamy state.
Pothead
I just spent the greater half of my night, reading about Harry Potter characters on Wiki...its 12.00am and I have work in a couple hours.....hello my name is Duran and i am a addicted to Harry Potter. *crowd repeats--hello duran*
And the rains came
The rain last night was absolutely wonderful. Even though i had school till 8.30 which btw was a good class...I'm learning so much its amazing. Coming outside the building, the sky lit up with some serious lighting. For a minute i was dumbfounded, its been so long since i saw lightening i relished it until the security snapped me back to reality saying 'aye i wanna lock up now" i made the walk to the Library through the rain, even though my surroundings was sickeningly polluted, i enjoyed the feeling the rain drops gave me as it hit every part of my exposed body. I wasn't thoroughly soaked but severely chilled. What could cure this chill? Some piping hot pizza. That's exactly what the gf and I had before i got home. The excitement within me was building, was this the night i get to be lulled off by the sound of raindrops? I wanted to hit my bed ASAP , but couldn't fight the urge to stand outside. Standing there in the dark, lightening over head, the sound of thunder breaking the silence occasionally. The rain poured over me and i felt so alive and thankful that i was. After drying off, i crawled into my bed chilled to the bone, pulling my blankets around me tighter I took a deep breathe, the last thing i remember is seeing the sky light up thorough my window. I awoke to my alarming blaring in my ear, it was the best night sleep ever, and what's better is its rainy once again today...sigh....the perfect start to the weekend, and a great way to end a week. Now if only i had a cup of hot chocolate my time here at the office would be bearable.
Beauty and the Beast
Remember the musical my gf and I attended? Beauty and the Beast....as usual i wasn't expecting much from this play and for once I was correct. It was no where as good as the other plays we attended, mind you it did have its high points but most of the play was just filler and no thriller. I especially disliked the actor that played belle's dad, he was trying too hard to act and sound old. The singing was ok, nothing exceptional unless you count the dressing table ...that actress ...wow..the lady can hit a high note.But i am no play critic, i just speak of my opinion. The gf however was enthralled , she loves everything musical, including those little boxes that play Beethoven music over and over again. The only musical she can do with out is my singing, and anime music...which she detests for some reason. In fact come to think of it she hates Animes...well i guess you can't win them all...she likes video games however, so i should settle for that.Anyways back to Beauty and the Beast, it was an okay show...but i would do it all over again if it meant seeing the huge grin on my Gf's face. I read in the newspaper that they are going to butcher..errr..i mean put together the little mermaid....lets hope its better. After the play, we searched for food, like ravenous animals....ravenous animals that couldn't make up their minds...lol...we stopped at KFC, Pizza boys, slowed down in front Churches Chicken, stared at Doubles people....but changed out minds each time. At the end we didn't get anything...lol.. that's us in print..unable to make up our minds...it was a nice Friday night.
Been down....
How do you please someone without giving up what makes you happy? How do you find the balance of me time and us time? How do you treat someone with continued respect when you feel so comfortable you can cuss in front of them? How do you apologize for words that were said in anger? How do you let go of the past? .....uggghhh...these are all the thoughts that are running through my head , guess what this relates to....yup...RELATIONSHIP.....I know countless books have been written, people make millions dishing out advice...but does any of it make sense until you as an individual decide ' hey i better put some of this into practice'...Lately looking back on my current relationship, I started out as quiet the respectable fella, always concerned about her well being, and her feelings...but these days....umm....lets say i am less concerned....ok...i admit it....these days i am a horrid boyfriend. I want to go back to the days i treated her like a princess, i want to make her feel special...I don't want to slack off, because I don't want to lose her.Its like sharks are prowling all around her waiting for me to fuck up to move in for the kill. I'm stumped...i need a book or a good relationship article about being a good bf. If i want this change i must make it, stop moping around....get up , get out there and make it happen. I am finally realizing that the power is within me....its within me to make my relationship be a good one.
I'm back to Anime
Appreciation
At times our own light goes out and is rekindled by a spark from another person. Each of us has cause to think with deep gratitude of those who have lighted the flame within us.:-Albert Schweitzer
This post is dedicated to my wonderful, beautiful, effervescent girlfriend. Yesterday when i was in pain, which BTW i still am slightly, she came over. Brought drowsy medicine, a muscle rub and gave me a massage....isn't that awesome? The we cuddled even thou i was very grump. I tend to turn into a grump when i am in pain. This morning i got up feeling much better. I just wanna say a big THANK YOU....its really the smallest things that count. I felt so loved and taken care of.....eeeeeee I'm walking on air .
You are a person
who makes life easier and better
for everyone around you.
Your continual acts
of thoughtfulness
and kindness
brighten each day.
What you did for me
will glow in my memory,
reviving pleasant feelings
every time I think about it.
I appreciate you,
and I thank you.
who makes life easier and better
for everyone around you.
Your continual acts
of thoughtfulness
and kindness
brighten each day.
What you did for me
will glow in my memory,
reviving pleasant feelings
every time I think about it.
I appreciate you,
and I thank you.
Texting....
When i grow up....
I have decided on a career, it finally happened...I want to be a Graphic Artist, its my passion...I'm getting excited just thinking about it..i wanna work on ads, make models picture perfect, make logos, design slogans, alter pictures ......i wanna do it all.....A graphic artist....sigh....i can't wait for this dream to come through....finally something i can really focus on....I'm so excited i could pee...lol... Graphic Artist.....o...did i mention.....GRAPHIC ARTIST!!!...lol....o yea...
Its takes work
A romantic relationship is sooo hard, when the newness of the whole thing has fizzled out....you really have to love that person, to want to be there, alot of effort must be made in communicating, to making time for each other, quality time....its takes work...love is work....Lately i have become distant from my gf , and i don't know why....its like i don't care if Sunday falls on Monday ..Something has changed....i need to find out what......It could be me, it could be her, but something is a miss.....more details soon...
I jus realized
Its weird , 2.00am I'm sitting here a feeling of peace has crept over me.I'm transported to St. Lucia where it was cold and rainy...i loved it...i loved my view of the ocean, the harbor...but most of all i remember the friend with the beautiful eyes that kept me company that night. I didn't feel so cold, or so alone. Of all the things i remember about that trip this particular night stands out in my head. I feel warm and fuzzy when i think about it. I just spoke to that person online and its all coming back to me ...a rush of fuzziness....