Okay so my life is at a turning point right now, i just broke up with my girlfriend and boy was that tuff, she meant everything to me, but how do you balance work, school, family life, and personal time with a girl that becomes more demanding as each day passes, i think the main reason i broke up with her is the constant fights we get into over the smallest things, like if i forgot to say "i love you" at the end of a 2 min conversation she flips out, then one word leads to another and its a full out screamfest, i cared for her more than i ever told her, but I'm glad that i didn't cause it'll just hurt even more knowing that i let my guard down and let this girl know everything, I'm a ..what would you call it... a cautious lover, i always wish her well even when we are fighting but its over for good now, cause the fighting has become too much to handle...BTW she can scream way louder than me so i always lose.
Silence
A Sadness has taken over me like a second skin it envelopes me.
Closing tightly around my body.
A veil falls over my eyes, blocking out light.
Only shadows are allowed to be seen, like silent gollems they walk before me, doing the bidding of their puppet masters.
I scream but my voice is silent, i breathe.
Slowly suffocating, this sadness brings me to my knees, i scream once again but like a firefly in the night i can only bee sen, i'm silent.
i close my eyes and accept my fate.
Closing tightly around my body.
A veil falls over my eyes, blocking out light.
Only shadows are allowed to be seen, like silent gollems they walk before me, doing the bidding of their puppet masters.
I scream but my voice is silent, i breathe.
Slowly suffocating, this sadness brings me to my knees, i scream once again but like a firefly in the night i can only bee sen, i'm silent.
i close my eyes and accept my fate.
Slippery Rocks
The title of my blog reflects my life, I can fall at any time if i don't watch my footing and where i step.
Paths of Desire
I have traveled the paths of desire
gathering flowers and carrying fire
Raising a grave to the reasons behind me
Looking for strength as you live to remind me
I'm drawn to you
I'm caught in you
I am the fly who dreams of the spider
The path to the web becomes deeper and wider
I dream of the silk that is tangled inside you
And know that I want to be somewhere beside you
I'm drawn to you
I'm caught in you
In your eyes
All of the promises
All the lies
Will you keep all the promises
In your eyes
I am crossing the bridges of sorrow
Empty with yearning and full of tomorrow
The river is high and the bridges are burning
I know I've been hurt but I keep on returning
I'm drawn to you
I'm caught in you
In your eyes
All of the promises
All the lies
Will you keep all of the promises
In your eyes
I have traveled the paths of desire
following smoke and remembering fire
The night is falling, the path is receding
I don't need to see it to know where it's leading
In your eyes
All of the promises
All the lies
Will you keep all of the promises
In your eyes
I have always loved this band and this song especially, it reminds me of who I am, of the relationships in my life , one in particular- no matter how much that person hurt me i would just go back cause i was blindly in love but that part of my life is over because after all the promises and all the lies, and all the tears, in the end i was just slowly killing myself. So i saved me from myself and got out of that relationship even though it stills hurts, its better to have a little pain in my heart for awhile than to be hurting all the time.