I skipped October , why?...beats me....been busy as heck. Many things happened. Lets do some bullet points for now
Remember i was offered an accounting position in my company? I declined it due to the fact that our warehouse manager left and now there is a vacancy there...I'm going to apply for it * crosses fingers* Hopefully i will get through , I mean its not that difficult of a job. Its a small company....I hope i get it, there is a raise that comes along with it :)
My four day weekend was umm restful...i was sick, so most of the time i was high on NyQuil and Vicks sleeping the day away...i enjoyed it very much, been so long since i slept for that period of time. I'm much better now although i have a lingering cough and a slight headache that comes and goes, but other than that A-OK.
Today marked the first of many days i would be travelling to work, woke up at 5am and instantly got down to getting ready , by 6.30 i was out of the house and waiting for a taxi. In order to reach to my employers establishment I have to take a taxi and 2 maxis...the crowds, the pushing, the shoving, the tight places...its all very stressful ...in addition to that there is a 10 min walk into the settlement , so you can imagine by the time i reached the front gate I'm just about ready to collapse. Leaving home at 6.30 I arrived at 7.45 not bad. Monday was long and dragged out. Now we are one member of staff shorter the weight of work is split up among who is left. Uggghhh it sucks. Monday totally kicked my ass and handed it to me on a sliver platter, all the while pointing and laughing..I hope to god Tuesday doest do the same.
My throat is sore , my temperature is slightly up and i have these sneezing spates that last like 2 mins every time they hit. Do i have the flu? Cold? H1N1? I hope to god none of the above and its just my body saying I'm tired. I'm fighting this best way i know how...tea...rest...and vitamin C....I hate to take pills, if the symptoms persist or get worse then I'll pop 2 NyQuil and hope in the morning to be better. This week is by far the best..Holiday on Monday, Holiday on Thursday and an off day from work on Friday..that gives me a cool 4 days mini vacation. Most likely it will be spent sleeping and cleaning. Diwali is upon us so my mom wants the surroundings as clean as it can possibly get...I'm fasting right now..amazingly i don't miss the meat, although buying food outside is very limited to a vege sub or doubles..but i hope to experiment with as much veges dishes as possible ...have to say its not as bad as i thought it would have been. i feel much healthier though without the meat in my system. Today just can't seem to go fast enough. I'm so not in the mood to type although i have so many things swirling around in my head. Just a not to self when i go home..update about job, love life and food. Right now i have to get back to doing work.
Dear MET Office,
Do you guys ever get tired of being wrong all the time?
Respectfully,
Icewolf
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Good Day Universe,
Why do you find it necessary to kick me while I'm down? Were you not hugged as a child?
I would appreciate it while I'm lying face down on the floor that you pat me on the head and say hey no one believes you fainted, we all know you tripped now get up. Instead of pointing and laughing, then kicking me in the stomach and running away.
Thanking you in advance.
Icewolf
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Dear Patrick Manning,
One letter won't be enough. This is just a line to say your budget makes me think I'm living in King Aurthur's time frame, all that taxing can't be good for the skin.
No respect,
Icewolf
I lost my favest pair of shades * sobs quietly* i had it hooked on my bag, and then when i got into the car it wasn't there anymore. Its lost. Alone out there in the cruel world, smashed or worse found and being worn by some big face person stretching its sides...my poor shades. Today i took out another pair, a sleek sporty one...nuh really my thing but i have no choice its either that or face the harsh sunlight ( my previous one were uber cool aviator shades) It just goes to show you'll never miss the water till the well runs dry..and how i miss the water..umm... shades...My new mission is to try and locate an exact replica. Wish me luck.
Marvel is set to unleash yet another cartoon series based on their ever popular super heroes. One catch though, this particular incarnation of super powered people are aimed at younger kids. Its based on a toy line of the same name. As you can see from the art work they are sickeningly cute. Aimed at kids or not i am super excited , and cant wait to see the end product. Yes I'm one of those fan boys that will walk blindly into another X-men movie because its just that an X-men movie, crappy storyline and everything. So feast your eyes upon these cute little critters and join me in bated anticipation of it. *Squeals like a girl*
The main characters who will be in every episode is at the top
How could you not like them
The toy line which it is based on
Check Storm...*blinks eyes lovingly*
Lat night i called my GF to say goodnight around 10.15pm, she sounded angry that i woke her up from sleep. I said a quick goodnight- sorry i woke you up and ran off like a scared puppy. It left me with a "brrr?" feeling. O well i over that and i over salted my lunch. Icck. Yea. I forgot i had already put salt to season the chicken, and low and behold i dash some salt in the pot again while it was cooking.The end product, was a bit salty, but if you took a bite of chicken and a spoonful of veges at the same time they canceled each other out. What did i make? Ginger chicken, stir fry veges and noodles. It cut good.
Had the weirdest dream last night, was in some sort of secondary school reunion, all my friends and enemies were there, all with huge accomplishments and i there with nothing to my name. It made me feel so small and insignificant. What is this dream trying to tell me? Whatever it is though I'm not taking it on cause i woke up feeling awful about my self. I have learned that i shouldn't compare myself to others, it only leaves me with a feeling of disappointment. Instead i should look at them and say hey i wanna be like that and work towards it, much better than beating myself up about it.
My co worker just gave me a Kiss Brownie...so that will def cut my hunger till i reach home. yay for me.I just got word on a new animated Marvel show more on this later.
This movie touched me more than i admitted. It really put into perspective how we as humans can be so animalistic while trying to appear as caring creatures. For the average trini although it pains me to say this they won't enjoy it because of the lack of action and sex. But for us who can enjoy a great storyline this movie is heaven sent, a bit graphic but it adds to the rawness of the film. Check it out. But don't carry your gf/bf unless they are really into the sci fi thing. I took mines and the hard looks i got during the movie made me afraid for the lights to come on :P
Well i didn't do it all by myself the gf helped me. It was awesome sharing the kitchen with her. She's a bit messy, but i can live with it :P. It was a rainy afternoon, we made pan fired chicken breast, potato wedges and yummy garlic sauce. It went down good. I'm really startignt o love this cooking thing.
I'm trying to eat healthy, here i have granola, yogurt and some blueberries the gf brought me. I thought it would have been yuck, but it was yum...i can have it every day ! All that natural sweetness gave me a sugar rush.
I've been experimenting with cooking, nothing too drastic...just simple dishes that i can handle in the kitchen. Here are a couple of pics i took of the lunch i made. Chicken and stir fry veges. It was yummy. Lets hope i can continue along this path. The pics aint all that.
Where have i been? Uggggh busy as hell, these days its like i have no time whatsoever for myself. i have a ton of pics to post up, as i have been on a snapping spree of sorts. I've really gotten into the cooking thing and have been cooking my own lunch all week. i sometimes cook dinner for myself as well, my mother looks proud and I'm happy she is around since i seldom clean up after my self :P yay for moms that do dishes...and i mess up alot of dishes. Have a ton of things to write about but I'll get to it when i go home, now its time to get back to work.
OMG I was just offered a new position in the company i work for.....acccck...what to do? I love what i do now, but that position is a much easier one. Its accounting assistant ...I have no formal accounts quals but i was trained by the accountant and its pretty straight forward. So what shall i do? If i don't take it , the other guy will. There is no increase in salary or anything, but much less work....sigh....wha to do?
It was my unfortunate experience to chose today to go to the bank...although i was warned by my banking buddy , how chaotic it gets, i said to myself, how bad can it be...it's old people they are frail, slow moving....hell if i could eat my words i would. It was like a scene out of a horror movie, you know the scene where everyone is running from the monster, that's the scene....people were pressed up against the glass for god's sake...pressed up!!! When security opened the door...kaboom! I dunno where these old people got the energy, but they just started to trample over everything including me....i was horrified, scared and horrified.....slightly amused...but more terrified....after locating a line, counting the heads before me there were a total of twenty....it took forever for me to get to the front to conduct my transaction. Luckily for me i had my headphones so passing the time wasn't that bad, i did feel bad for some of the old folks thou, no seating accommodation whatsoever for them...the clerks were extremely slow moving, so their wait was going to be a much longer one than mines. Getting out of the bank was the best feeling ever....I don't ever want to see old people being portrayed as frail and sickly, cause from what i saw, they could have taken me out, and i betcha there were a couple who wanted to :).
Remember the Fish and Potatoes i made well here are the pics....I am NOT a food photographer. Looks yummy none the less. That spoon should have been a fork. lol
Yesterday my friend Dave related a story to me of how his neighbor was robbed. Broad daylight while the guy was walking home he was robbed. This country really gone to the dogs, but there is a sliver lining. The car the bandit was driving shut down, since they guy was only a few houses away from his uncle he ran and got help. Arriving at the scene, the car was locked and bandit gone. The police was called in, the neighbour was taken to the police station where who would he bounce up? MR BANDIT, reporting his car stolen....yuh see how them bandit smart. The police confronted him and he denied it. When he was searched, his removable deck from his car was on his possession,( he doesn't want to get it stolen?) how it got there he doesn't know, after some interrogation he confessed, the neighbours stolen phone and wallet was already given to one of his partners. He was arrested, finally some good news eh.
Graphic Arts class is later and once again , i did not do my home work....is some sort of pattern forming? I just didn't feel like going on Corel Draw to outline a couple clip arts...ugghhh, not only was i feeling lazy, using that particular software gets me all angry, I'm so in tuned with Photoshop's keyboard short cuts that when i attempt it ( by habit) it causes Corel Draw to go berserk. I guess I'll have to make up some sort of excuse , or go to class extra early and rush it down. Sadly i think it'll be the second option. O well , I'll learn one way or the other. Hooray for learning, and graphic arts.
Kelly Clarkson's new single "Already gone" has me sprung, I know it sounds like "Halo" by Beyonce...maybe that's why i took to it so quickly....why am i writing about this? I have no idea..lol.. it just popped into my head. I miss Michelle Branch, I love her music...gawd where am i going with the post? Anyways Last night was incredibly awesome, I cooked...yes I get the sudden urge now and then. I made fish, potatoes and creamy garlic sauce....surprise surprise.....I almost fainted when i tasted it, twas good, even brought some for lunch......I took a pic also, will post it up later.After i made dinnerlunch...I played in the rain at twilight....amazing as usual...showered, crawled into my bed and just enjoyed the warmness it. Mom made sawine, that was a plus. Rainy days are always the best.
Above: Mr zee zee
I've probably said this before but GARBAGE is my all time favorite band. I find comfort in Shirley Manson's voice, there's a certain rawness in her lyrics, and the actual sound of her band just pulls at my emotions. Even though some of her songs are outright depressing, i do find some sort of comfort in it which makes me feel better. I can relate. Lying on my bed i always get lost in dark fantasy worlds , sitting on a raft on the stormy ocean, listening, i find calm, that's the power of music.
My GF thinks I'm a beast, at least that the impression I'm getting. Sitting yesterday quietly, enjoying the silence between us ,she cautiously asked" are you angry?" to which i replied no, " are you sure?" umm yes...somethings wrong why are you so quiet... are you upset over something? no I'm not...OK....Few minutes later, "tell me what has you so upset". umm I'm not upset, come on i know you, why are you angry did i do something? No I'm not angry.... It went on like this. Clearly me sitting quietly is an indication of anger. Later that night, I'm on msn chatting with her, the same questions are being asked "why I'm angry, why I'm upset, was it something she said or did?" Is this the outward projection that i give, as a very angry person? So angry my gf constantly needs to be reassured that my silence is not hiding a brimming, about to explode pot of anger? Suddenly i feel a mixer of depression and being ashamed, I'm trying really hard to be "happy' to the point of faking it, but it seems that I'm already fitted in to a emo mold...the song of my life *Trick is to keep breathing* by garbage.
In order to try and quell my rage, and bring some positivity into my sometimes dark life, I've decided to get back to my meditating roots. It was a regular thing for me a couple years ago, when i was in my uncontrollable state. It helped, so much so that i didn't find the need to continue until now, when i am once again letting my anger get the best of me.So far I've done 3days. I shower, take off all the lights, light a single scented candle, let the music of Enya softly hum in the background. Sitting quietly, i focus on my breathing, then clear my head of all thoughts, i then repeat "i am at peace with myself and my surroundings" this leads into a talk with god, then me focusing on my goals. It immensely relaxing, so far my anger fuse has gotten longer, awhile to get angry, but every little helps. Lets see how it goes.
Its thundering, there are flashes of lightening and I'm walking on the electrically charged air :), Just came back from lunch with my hunny,its amazing what a little interaction with a loved one during working hours can do. I feel as if I've just gotten here, yup that's the kind of energy I'm carrying.If the rain falls this will be the best Tuesday ever! On the topic of weather, this has got to be the quietest Hurricane Season I remember. Nothing , not even a tropical disturbance lurks on the horizon. I'm not complaining or anything, but what if they decide to make up for lost time next year? and by "they" i refer to the hurricanes.
O my lorsh, if i hear that " its mickeys mickeys magic, mickeys mickeys magic, o yea" one more time on the radio i am going to serious have a BF ( bitchfit) . When i close my eyes i hear it , i see mickey running around, and Minnie in the background dancing, ugggghhhh they are driving me insane, i swear i know every single line to that commercial. Honest.
Today being the anniversary of the attempted coup by the Jamat al muslimeen, the office was abuzz with talk of how each person recalls it. I was like 7 when it occurred. I remember something coming over the television, my mom telling me to run up the road and call my dad, who was liming by the bar...sadly when i reported to him that the red house was burning down i was greeted with a whole lot of laughter from the other men there, asking if i was crazy, I kept insisting over and over again with such urgent in my voice the barman , was forced to turn on his T.V, then realizing that it was true, the bar emptied as everyone ( drunk and sober) headed off home. The days to follow, i remember the neighbors coming together to ' lock down" the village, no one could get in or out. There was alot of looting, and in my tiny head, free candy. Many of the warehouses where I'm located was looted, I remember the chocolates, perfume and Vienna sausages....then my mom took us to our grandparents house in central, where we stayed till everything went back to normal, my dad stayed home. It was an exciting time for me, i was none the wiser of how dangerous the situation was. I'm thankful that it didn't turn out much worse. I've sure seen alot of stuff in my life time.
lately the gf and i have been at each others throat. The slightest thing would set me off and i blow up like a huge balloon and pop, my temper gets the better of me. Sitting one day,i wondered how did we move from i cant get enough of you to i cant stand you. I asked for time away to gather my thoughts, but couldn't get through an entire day without calling her. We needed to talk, to sit , face to face and talk. But that didn't occur till Saturday, when i vomited all my feelings that i hid. Sitting there completely embarrassed at what i just said, waiting fro her to say its over, but she didn't, instead the look in her eyes invited me to say more. And i did, we both talked , alot was said, alot was accomplished. Today marks 18 mnths since we have been together, and I'm looking at it a a new beginning.I've made a list of things i need to do, in order to keep the spark alive. So to my love, HAPPY 18. ( she sometimes reads)
That dollar below looks awfully real, like i could print it up and buy myself a pack of corn curls.I feel the sudden urge to say i wont, so no one will label me a potential counterfeiter. On the topic of money,i keep hearing that inflation is on a downturn, and prices should be following but have yet to see it in the supermarkets or feel it in my wallet. Is the gov't feeding the public false information or are business owners just plain greedy? Maybe we are the ones to blame because we don't exercise our buying power, i know of people who will buy regress if a tin of juice was 5 bucks last week and 8 this one.It doesn't matter to them. If we take a stand and say no, would the store owners be forced to decrease the price? but alas for every one person who says no, there are 3 probably who says 'yea whatever" I really hope that prices decrease so i can save some money, right now my spending savings are nil, i blew it all Saturday, was worth it though.Maybe soon, I'll begin to see a decrease if so hooray, if not, I'll just have to continue to bite the dollar as hard as possible.
This weekend flew past like a crazy wild duck .It was filled with emotional highs and lows, sadness, gladness and a bit of madness.Where shall i start Friday was busy hell in work, I had another large project on my plate with a deadline date of Today, luckily with determination and loads of help from the administrator, i completed it on time, skipped lunch, breakfast and all my water breaks but i did it, and am very proud. So technically i can count Friday as a good day since i was so occupied with that project the day went by pretty much unnoticed. I went home, fought with my gf, ate cause i was so depressed, did my laundry at 10pm because i was unable to sleep, i even hung it out also, had to fight up with a couple toads roaming the yard, but i did it none the less. Saturday, i headed off to Chaguanas, with gf in tow. Got my brand new Mohawk hairstyle, had lunch and blew out $1000.00 on unnecessary stuff, but i sort of enjoyed spending that cash, i had been saving it for about 3 months now so it was good to treat the gf and I to lunch and a couple other goodies, now i'll start from the beginning, all over again. Gf and i had a "discussion", went rather well, more on that later. Sunday was errrr, ummm...a lazy day, i pretty much spent the entire day eating everything in sight, and getting ready for the week ahead. Gf came over we hung out, and now I'm in work once again....excitement at its highest...lol...
As i stand here ,the good within me glowing
I'm stripped naked, every part of my soul showing
The human, the animal
The dark and the pure
The saint, the joker, the fool and the whore
am i not a child of god
One born of this earth
Do i not have a mother
who has given me birth
I sit in silence and pray
Am i not allowed to seek god out in my way?
Who shall speak and read me my rights
Who will cover my eyes and show me night
Who shall bind my hands, and cut off my tongue
Push me in the square where i belong
Who with their weapons, their force and their lies
Who with their false hope and their alibis
you?
With words of ignorance
with words of hate
with your darken light,and your blind faith
You
with the uneducated mind...
you will not be given any of my time
My battleline is drawn, its a circle you see
It prevents your hate from getting to me
so keep your acid tongue and swallow you spit
Cause see me here I'll never quit
I'll rise like the Phoenix over and over again
You are the person i no longer call friend
For you are not god, and you cannot judge
This is my stance and i will never budge.
Why I love him:
He can kick anyones ass in the wizarding world
He calls Voldemort - Tom- that's just a kick to the balls
Has a pet phoenix
Is totally powerful
Has a wry sense of humor
Why I hate him:
I don't the man dead , cant hate him
