Its that time again

Yes time is flying by, we are now in the middle of August. Good news , remember my exams? hmmmm did i blog about it? Anyways I passed!! I was entirely shocked, since i only put in 2 weeks of studying. I'm thankful to the almighty. Now on to Financial Accounting and Q.M....I swear im going to at least put in a month studying :)

Hooray!

I'm living on the sun

Seriously this weekend was such a scorcher that i went temporarily insane. I started spinning furiously on my chair hoping to generate some type of whirlwind, it didn't work--I was just left dizzy and sweaty. So i upped and floored it to the mall, but to no avail ...seems like the mall was stuffy hott as well so grabbing some ice cream I left and realized that driving around in the car with the AC on high was the best option to keep kool.

And as usual the rain fell this morning. Monday! after no clouds in the sky all weekend :( , I'm hoping that the long weekend ahead would hold at least one day of rain so i can sleep in and maybe even get to sit outside in it for awhile.

Here's hoping that the week ahead is filled with loads of great stuff :)

I'm Back!

Wow been so long right. Life is busy now ....school, work plus balancing everything else.

Tristan started pre-school Monday past, wasn't he just born? Time really does just fly by, he's growing up so quickly and everyone is one step closer to becoming ashes. Scary thought i know.

I went NYC...fuck yes! It was awesome, not how i imagined it to be, personally I prefer London.

Have lots of stories to write, lots of stories to tell for now I'm just checking in ( i say that alot and then poof I'm gone for another couple months lol) But honestly my brain needs to get those gears moving again, and writing may help.

BTW i suck at school, nothing sticks...I suck at studying also ...I'm scared for exams ...I don't want to fail but failure is an inevitable part of life....

I came off Facebook ...why cause I'm too addicted, I'm always up in there playing Zuma trying to beat someones score gosh i wasted too much time there, I'll go back maybe in a couple months. In the mean time i Tweet so follow me Duran_Icewolf ...if you dare of course...and don't mind pretty mundane tweets..lol

So many things to touch on...so little time...I'll be back before the day is up ...I hope

Better Late than Never

Our Xmas tree home

Lovely Wreaths in the living room

Santa and his reindeer plus balls

3 wisecracking snowmen

Merry Christmas!!!

Here are some brief pics of my Xmas decos. Not much to say about it lol, I think Christmas came and went in a blur of red and green. I didn't enjoy it as much as i usually do because of the rush of things. This year i promise to be better prepared so in the days before i wont be running around like a crazee man on crack looking for presents instead i'll kick back and relax.

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Why do people ...

Why do people discourage rather than encourage? Whats so hard in saying "well good for you, I'm sure once you put your mind to it , you'll be able to do it" instead of "yuh sure you want to do that? But you need to have math in order to accomplish anything, it might be difficult, yuh sure you have the money to do that?"

Let me rewind....I've decided to pursue a diploma in Business Management , I've already made all the necessary arrangements to sign up for this course in Nov. one of the requirements is a job letter stating your duties and the length of time you have been employed with said company. I'm entering through the "mature route" . I do not have a pass in Math, and i don't think i ever will since Math is such a difficult subject for me, I know the basics of course but i could never see myself needing to build a bridge anytime soon for me to want to know the rest of the concepts.

All this was of course discussed with the personnel at the school who advised me that English is given priority in this course rather than Math ( English i am good at :D) so blah blah blah long story short. My co worker insist that in order for me to be anywhere remotely successful in this course i NEED to have a pass in Math. Well i say to her "boooo" Usually words like hers would make me pack up and not do the course, but that's the old me, the new me says bitch imma show you , imma show all of you that i can be successful in whatever I've put my mind to.

So here's wishing me good luck!

Muse

"And when tears are shed from the eyes of the moon, the earth will shed its skin and we will all be no more....."

So out of the blue, I'm staring at my facebook page and these words come dancing into my head. It can only mean one thing...My muse is back!!

I've been complaining alot lately that i have no motivation to start or finish anything creative, i feel as if something is missing -the force that usually pushed me forward- the same force that would randomly put thoughts in my head, words not of my own. Words that need to scribble down ASAP before they disappear. I feel as if its back , now let the fun begin :)

Weekend Heat

Although parts of the country got a serious dosage of rain, the little nook I'm in got blistering sun...just thinking about it makes me sweat a little. Both Saturday and Sunday were so extremely hot that i hardly did anything but laze around in the hammock hoping that the odd wind would pass and cool me down. In other words this weekend was uneventful....wait...*headslap* I saw my ex ....yup after 2 odd years of being broken up , our paths crossed while i was shopping with my sister.

Awkward is one way to describe it ...i did not speak to her, my sister however blabbed on and on ...I was just standing there , pretending to be looking at shampoo ( of all things) , she left, then i got the sharpest jab in my ribs and a scolding for not saying hello...I watched her walk away , something odd happened then and there ...I felt deep within me something stirring ...i don't know what it was, but it left me feeling guilty and "bad"....I quickly pushed it aside with a Kit Kat bar ....TGFC ( thank god for chocolate)

Ughhhh

Seriously people make me feel like crap sometimes, like I'm nothing, lower than nothing, like i should be guilty for just breathing....why do i always let someones words or attitude get to me like that? Ughhhhh self confidence is the word and lacking it is my game....(does that even make sense?)

Take for instance the witch, once i showed up to work on casual Fridays with an American Eagle polo...she looked at me and said in the most surprised tone " is that American Eagle? " to which i replied yes and then she further asked " like real American Eagle?" ....I of course said yes and she just rolled her eyes and walked away....it left me feeling as if i wasn't worthy enough to be wearing that polo...I mean WTF!!! Was i too low on her society pyramid to be wearing it? **sigh**

I have many other examples but i rather not relive them at this point. All i wanna do i curl up in a corner and cry. Boo on the world...

Meat Dress

I Love me some GAGA, but this meat dress ---it doesn't shock me ---but it sort of disgusts me...i mean wearing meat...raw, unprocessed meat...how was it smelling? I can hardly stand the smell at the butcher's shop so i imagine they had to have used some sort of curing process on this dress. Her statement however i love, we need to stand up for something or else we won't even be worth the meat on our bones and will be treated as such..booyah!...I still don't like the dress *queasy*

Sad Song

This song makes me so sad :(

Critical Thinking

Recently i came across a book in work that's supposed to help you be a critical thinker in 25 days, well not a complete transformation but it implants the basic foundation to change your thinking. So far it really interesting and challenges me to question my mind. At the end of it I'm supposed to come out more confident and a better conversationalist....I have no idea whether it will work out or not but what the hey, I'm giving it a try. The first lesson is to show more empathy towards your fellow human being...I'll let you know how that turns out k.

Time, Time Time

Time is flying, spinning out of control..its scary...one minute it was July and suddenly its September....either I've gotten so lazy that time just decided to leave me on the way side or no one is noticing that it has in fact sped up.

While i ponder this "time warp" the good news -CHRISTMAS is closer , its 102 days till the jolly day, but the season starts for me in October. Xmas to me is a season rather than a day, so this year i intend to enjoy each day of the season, as you may have guessed its my most favest time of year, so intend to savor each moment, because of this time warp , it'll be gone in two shakes of a rabbit tail.

Mayaro run down...

The family lime was spectacular, had loads of fun just chilling with the everyone...its so nice to know that my family can get together like this...many families can't and for that I'm very thankful for them no matter how screwed up they are..lol...

Unfortunately i was stuck with breakfast duties...uggghhh...can you imagine staying up till 3am liming then having to get up at 8am to prepare Bfast for everyone, reguardless i woke up at 9 and bfast was on the table at 10.30...LOL that will soo teach them....I made French toast, potato fritatta , omelets and scrambled eggs all served on toast...of course these were all made on different mornings.

One of my favorite moments was sitting on the beach at night, the waves crashing on the shore, the clouds low and heavy with rain...me there having a hot bowl of chicken corn soup and just thinking to myself, darn the simplest pleasures are really the best.

After 5 days i was burnt to a crisp and was more than happy to be back home and in my own comfy bed, instead of one i had to share with cousins.....cousins who snore btw. Mayaro is definitely a place to make memories and this was no different . Cant wait to go back, unfortunately it'll probably be next year

Did i mention the beach on a rainy day is simply the best?!

Beach Beach Beach

The countdown is on to the weekend lime at Mayaro. I'm super excited, the family is heading up there today, I'll be joining them tomorrow (cause of work bleh :( ...) So I'm basically missing one full day of fun, guess I'll have to make up for it when i get there.

The menu has been planned and it sounds delish. Wontons, Geera chicken, Souse, Shepherds Pie are among some of the tasty morsels I'll be sinking my teeth into. My friend Dave and I are strictly in charge of breakfast...so yuh know its bread and cheese 5 days straight for everyone..LOL , nah i kid ...I have a lovely breakfast menu planned most of which i can't spell but it involves eggs, potatoes, cheeses, jams and all those delish stuff.

My only worry is that i am not able to leave early tomorrow. I'm very punctual at work , and hardly ever take any time off, I've informed management of my intention to leave half day tomorrow since the beginning of the month, if for some unplanned reason i am unable to get that time off, bet your bottom dollar i am staying home Wednesday....not out of spite but all other workers are allowed to leave early, get time off whenever they choose but I for some reason its always a problem...I'm talking from experience here. ...I guess yea out of spite lol

The witch isn't coming in today ( does happy dance) , so Thursday wont be as stressful as it usually is, Here's asking the universe for a wonderfully delicious day ahead.

Duck , duck...Goo..err...Dog

Well this certainly is a different perspective. The human mind is a thing of wonder. Two persons can look at the same exact picture and interpret it in completely different ways. Whoever noticed this ..great imagination..thanks for pointing it out...now even more reason to be freaked out by ducks

Seriously

Come on spammers for Zeus sakes, I log on to blogger get all excited cause i see 3 unapproved comments only to find out its SPAM!! Stupes please do not dash my hopes like that again...geeze...

In other news its WEDNESDAY!! One day closer to Friday :) and this Friday is an extra special one --I'm heading Mayaro with mi familia for a 5 day funfest, I'm seriously excited. The food, the laughs, the pillow fights, the sand, the water, the running, the sunrise and most importantly the relaxation. Its gonna be sooo good.

Yesterday the witch wasn't as horrible as she usually is (didn't summon a winter that would last a thousand years) which leads me to believe that she is also going on vacation from today (whispers around the office)...well good for her, hope she comes back with a much better attitude.

Here's hoping for a great safe day!

OMGAGA

I just looked at my counter located on the sidebar, since i've installed it , I've had over ten thousand hits...CRAZZZYYYYYY....maybe most of those hits came from myself..LOL.. i do check my blog occasionally, but i didn't realize people actually visit my blog. So a big THANK YOU if you stumbled upon my little piece of cyberspace. Hope you enjoy my random thoughts and i hope you can stomach it to visit me again :) Woohooo

New Friends

I've made alot of new online pals , some of them close to me , some of them not so much...I'm thinking of reviving "Creature Feature" will be good to appreciate the people I've got in my life, but not yet though I have to of course get permission from my friends to use their photo.

Diet Update: I've lost a LB...yup I'm pretty proud. Its not much but it is a start. I've basically cut out all snacks from my must have food groups, no soft drinks either. I feel healthier and energetic. I've also begun walking around the Savannah....well i only did it once...but i intend to try and get there at least 3 times per week. Hey its a start and its much better than me flopping around with my fatty self just getting bigger.

Monday went by with alot less stress than i expected, but today- gosh ...Tuesday is like the worse day of the week, right next to Thursday of course ( that's the other day "the witch" comes in) I'm approaching the day with caution, like a small mouse i''ll pop my head out sniff for danger then quickly pop back inside my cosy comfortable nest ( my office) until the danger passes...that's unless the cat decides to come ripping off my front door to scream at me for not filing away some report ...then I'll have to bite and scratch . Here's hoping its a good Tuesday.

Mondays

I used to hate Mondays but now i have a deep seething hate for Tuesdays...why...for none other reason than my witch of a manager is here on Tuesdays. Uggghhh how on earth could one person be so grumpy? I for one cannot walk through life with such a dark aura. I used to hate her, but now all i feel is pity. Pity that she is too wrapped up in her own world to experience the joy of life. O well enough about her....lets talk about my favorite subject ....Me

Over the last months I have been a literal roller coaster of emotions. Ups and deep dark downs, but through it all I never once forgot that i had friends and family i could lean on, not to mention a wonderful GF :). My whole attitude has changed, the way i view life is completely different from the emo kid i once was. I've matured. Good thing? I guess its left to be seen, of course I'll always let the kid inside me out to prank someone every now and again.