Somtimes I jus wanna...

Runaway....leave Trinidad and go to some foreign country where the people are not such wusses. Crime is seemingly escalating as usual the police is at a loss. The cost of living is ever so high, and i can't see an extra dollar at the end of the month. aaarrggghhhhh its makes me angry and depressed. I have stopped spending my money on luxuries, it my own way of protesting....i only buy what i need to survive...everything else is put on hold....the saddest thing is after i buy what i need to survive ( food, gel, deodorant, pay the bills) there is no money left. I have never in my working life been this broke. I guess i have to tighten my belt even more, but I'll let you know one thing....i am not....i repeat not ....giving up gel....

I jus realized

Its weird , 2.00am I'm sitting here a feeling of peace has crept over me.I'm transported to St. Lucia where it was cold and rainy...i loved it...i loved my view of the ocean, the harbor...but most of all i remember the friend with the beautiful eyes that kept me company that night. I didn't feel so cold, or so alone. Of all the things i remember about that trip this particular night stands out in my head. I feel warm and fuzzy when i think about it. I just spoke to that person online and its all coming back to me ...a rush of fuzziness....

Weekend thoughts

Life is too short. Don't wait for everything to be in place to start enjoying your life, don't wait till there is enough money in the bank, don't wait till after exams, don't will till u get a little older.... just enjoy it now. It sounds simple enough but alas it is one of the most difficult things to do, life happens and its up to the individual to accept it as positive or negative. I've been told by many people, ones close to me that i am a negative person. It struck me hard when my GF told me that the other day. I always saw myself as striving to be positive, but i guess i still outwardly portray myself as Eeyore...o dear, I'll just sit here and wait for the rain to fall, seeing as i don't have a house or anything...lol....i'm trying my best to look at the good in things, but its so difficult .... who knew being positive would be so much work, but i have made a decision to make a valid effort to see the glass as half full. So here goes......

Special

Have you ever felt so special, that you got all warm and fuzzy inside ... that's me today...i honestly have never felt this way. its AWESOME!!!. I got alot of attention from my special someone today and it made me feel so loved that I'm walking on air.....*floats away*

Teachers...hmmp

Sitting here feeling sleepy...i began to think about the weird places i have fallen asleep...work has been one, on the kitchen floor, on my grandmother stairs, on the living room rug, under the mango tree, next to the couch, and recently in class... i never fell asleep in class before, in any class...but this pc class i'm currently taking makes my eye water and dribble comes out my mouth. I think that teachers have lost the art of teaching, aren't they supposed to keep the attention of the class, make the topics interesting, to peak attention ? Instead my lecturer just stands there , robotically saying line after line in a one tone voice..lulling the class to sleep..Teachers these days are more interested in money than the question of whether or not their pupils are actually learning something.Teaching like reading is a dying artform, that should be preserved, ever wonder why all of a sudden phonics, computer teaching programmes are all the rage...are our kids really getting stupider? or have the quality and care of teaching dropped? I think its the latter...