Silence

Silence is when i don't hear you laugh
Silence is when i don't hear you sigh
Silence is when i cant hear you whisper i love you
Thats silence
A million sounds engulf me, echoing through my ears
but if i don't hear your voice
its nothing but silence
A thousand melodies swirl around me, like smoke from a flame
trapping me like a cocoon
But if i don't hear your voice its silence
Silence around me, silence within me beating within my cells
you are no longer here so i take this silence and push it with in me
drowning it
Only to realize that i have drowned within it
with in this silence.

Questions

Why do i feel sad, is it because my heart has been broken and can't fit back together?
Is it because i loved and lost?
Why do tears fill my eyes?
is it because i can still hear your voice in my ear?
or is it because i can still feel the warmth of your body next to mines or maybe , just maybe i can still feel your lips aganist mines?
How did we grow apart?
why didnt we see.... but its too late now..
All i'm left with now are questions

DROWNING IN YOU

Drunk on your smile, I feel lost
The way you eyes sparkle in the dark like broken glass on a sandy beach
i love your smell, it swirls around me rolling over me like the tide, filling my lungs
I'm drowning in you
i close my eyes and fall asleep, engulfed in your arms, breathing you with each gasp of air
Loving every minute that I'm there drowning in you

Sadness

Sadness beats within me, filling my soul with tears

Pretty soon I’ll drown

Drowning within myself, lost to those around me

Lost to myself

I swim beating against the hurt, against the betrayal

I can’t reach the surface

Slowly I sink down into the clear water of my tears

Silently I scream, no sound escapes.

I’m trapped.

A hollow heart

I feel dead inside like the light within me has been extinguished, i don't have the will that i once carried, the care within my soul is gone, friends? don't need them, family? don't want them, lover? don't have them.

I feel alone, alone and angry.No one to turn to, no where to hide, just lost in a fog that i can't find my way through.

I once was a happy boy, full of life, full of energy, full of hope, but then something happened, something i know not of, but it happened and it sucked all my life out of me, now I'm just a shell of my former self. Walking alone in this world , i feel sick inside, feel like screaming , screaming i hear all the time , i close my eyes and begin to cry is it tears of sadness?, tears of anger? tears of joy.....?