As i walk away remembering all the words you said
I feel as if I'm spinning on my head
the rants and shouts
the way you carry about
I wanna run away, away from you
and all the dreadful things that you do
i have to say and it'll make you mad
but being next to you has made me sad
The things you say and what you do
makes my sadness turn into hate for you
I hate your words, i hate the said
i hate talking to you while i lie in my bed
i hate spending my time, and my voice
You make me angry, mad and sad
and you think that writing this has made me glad
writing my feelings down using this pen
cant change the fact that you are no longer my friend.....
Goodbye
Thoughts
The words that leave my mind and get scribbled onto paper
Is not planned, its not thought through
Its the sad stories that fill my head
Stories of the past or of the future
It just comes to me, unknowing
I'm not a poet, i cant sing
I'm untalented
Yet the words flow
Like water on a rainy day
From the rooftop of my mind
Like showers in the day
It can be sudden and unexpected
Or blown in and last for days
Whatever it is or however it comes
I'm glad that it is here, using me to write its words....
UNMOVING
The days go by and i stand still
Unmoving...
Day turns to night and night to day
and yet i stand here
Waiting.....
I wait for you, you said you'll come
yet I'm here still alone, feeling dumb
Watching....
the rain it falls and the sun it shines
yet i stand here, am i wasting my time?
Thinking....
Will you come, will you stay or would
you continue to be away
Feeling....
A pain that etches itself on my heart
that cuts deeper with each second that we are apart
Wanting...
The calm of your voice, the smoothness of your touch
The smile in your eyes and the laughter i miss so much
Missing...
The whole you, the things you do
I guess I'll continue to stand here
and wait for you.....
BLABBERING
Well I'm back here trying to blog, dunno why its so difficult to find time to put a couple words here but time seems to be speeding up ,well to me at least, I'm tired of life its boring, mundane and complicated all at the same time, i refuse to think about anything- i just pass the days like a ghost not retaining anything to add to my vast collection of non sense, i hate to have discussion with friends and family i get annoyed easily and bored twice as fast, i think its menopause or something :), i was never like this, i have this don't give a damn attitude that just sucks well not for me but for my friends and family cause when they talk to me i don't hide the fact that they are boring the hell out of me with the details of their lives, which i have no int rest in whatsoever cause its all the same stupid problems all the freaking time, why cant anyone understand that we have much larger problems in the world besides they not having a boyfriend or girlfriend...god thousands of animals die each day, people are killed...the earth is dying and no one seems to give a damn about it..i feel like screaming cause its sooo frustrating, for every person who cares there are like 500 people who don't its a losing battle. God why do i feel so freaking crummy its like bordering depression and sadness, do i think too much? do i care too much? i feel lost and confused and the weird part is that its more than usual.....HELP!!
We are connected to nature
Though in this concrete jungle that we roam
We get lost, in the nonliving
Surrounded by stillness we forget
Forgotten where we once were, where we come from
Illusions cover our eyes, blinding us to the living
Essence of life floats across us everyday
Unveil your eyes, and you will see
The nature that surrounds you and me