Lost u

You are not the person I once Knew
What happened to me....? What happened to you?!
Your eyes are dark, they hide your soul
The words that fall from your mouth are no longer whole
They shatter on the floor, into sharp pieces
That cut and slash me, leaving marks upon my body

The secrets that were once told now lay unraveled at your feet
Like an old cassette reeled out by your rage
Your look at me, the light is gone...
What happened to you? .... What happened to me?....

Another Happy day...

My sis came home from the hospital today.. so i was like yay running out to greet her, but the baby is still there he will be out by Friday ,so i guess the end of the week not only holds the weekend but also a brand spanking new baby, i'll be scared to hold him though, he'll be so tiny and fragile...mmmm i'll probably watch him for a month or two and then hold him, i dont want to break him...lol.. i just like super excited. Can't wait. Anyways work was fine today the usual stuff the only thing that drove me insane was that our ISP "Greendot" ( i can call names its my blog and its true) totally F'ed up , so for the whole day we had no net access alot of work came to a stand still especially in my dep't so hopefully tomorrow it will be up again and i can get some serious work done. Then electricity went, which really didn't matter cause i wasn't doing anything anyway,it was silent luckily i had my phone with me so i could runs some tunes, the unlucky thing is that i recently deleted all my songs and only loaded SPICE GIRLS so yeah... i was playing wannabe while my co-workers looked on with a strange but amused expression, i couldn't care less, its the damn SPICE GIRLS...lol.. they know they like it...And one thing that i'm proud of is that i actually studied Math today..which is a big thing for me, and i have to thank my friend for encouraging me so hopefully this is the first step to many days and hours of playing with numbers and o what fun i will have ( i need to convince myself)

Happy Time ;)

Saturday Jan 5th my good friend and I met to exchange xmas gifts..yeah we late like that, in Chaguanas and we had pizza courtesy of her ... after i felt a bit guilty not paying for some of it but say what its Kisha and she doesn't make a fuss. But the funniest thing happened before she met me i was sitting on a Park bench in front of the mall waiting for her when this girl sat next to me then all of a sudden burst out crying i was like huh... WTF and i'm not saying like little sobs it was like head in my hands crying, suddenly i realized that everyone was looking at me, as if i was making this girl cry... umm i just stood up and went to the next bench and sat there, people kept staring at me until finally she got up and left i was like whew.. but then another girl came and sat next to me but luckily kisha came in time, with her best friend who saw me and opted to make an excuse not to have pizza with us, i felt bad for like a sec but then i was like more pizza for me... only to realize that we (kisha) bought slices so it was one slice per person..lol.. I gave her the Harry Potter 7 book and she gave me a kool T-shirt which i love, we had soo much fun, well i thought so, it was a long time since i saw her it was great, she did however say something that probably made me stand up and take notice and decided to change my life, that she was glad i was soo happy at xmas time because the past 11 months i was so down and depressed... i didn't know my friends saw me in that way, i'm usually a happy person so i decided to be my normal happy self this year and forget about all my problems whether they are real or in my head, so THANK YOU kish capish or KIKI. Above are some of the pics i took..... 1)Thats the pizza I ate, well the box at least..lol,
2) that kisha looking at i dunno, she didn't want me to take the pic in Mario's thought the flash would attract too much attention..lol.. it did, (3) thats her Happy with Harry, i mean who isn't happy with Harry, and (4) thats me and her, we took that pic in a parking spot that about 3 cars came by and drove away thinking we were holding it for someone, little did they know we were in our invismobile..like wonder woman..

I'm an Uncle

OMFG!!!! i'm an uncle my sis had her baby , a healthy baby boy...i'm soo excited..i can't believe me an uncle... i don't feel any different but i do feel like i need to be more responsible...nah... i just happy that i have a baby i could play with and hug and pinch up and kiss up ... however when the said baby makes a poo poo i'm out. Its a great night tonite wooohooooo!!!!!

Its a wonderful song

There is this song that totally freaks me out, but in a good way... its called "Love song" by Sara Bareilles.. the lyrics rock and the tune is nice and catchy but the line that probably caught my attention is the first one... here are the lyrics:

Head under water
And you tell me
To breathe easy for awhile
The breathing gets harder
Even I know that
Made room for me
It's too soon to see
If I'm happy in your hands
I'm unusually hard to hold on to

Blank stares at blank pages
No easy way to say this
You mean well but you make this hard on me

I'm not gonna write you a love song
Cause you ask for it
Cause you need one
You see, I'm not gonna write you a long song
Cause you tell me it's make or breakin' this
If you're on your way
I'm not gonna write you to stay
If all you have is leavin'
I'm gonna need a better reason
To write you a love song
Today
Today..

I learnt the hard way
That they all say
Things you wanna hear
My heavy heart sinks deep down under
You and Your twisted words
Your help just hurts
You are not what I thought you were
Hello to high and dry

Convinced me to please you
Made me think that I need this too
I'm trying to let you hear me as I am

I'm not gonna write you a love song
Cause you asked for it
Cause you need one
You see, I'm not gonna write you a love song
Cause you tell me it's make or breakin' this
If you're on your way
I'm not gonna write you to stay
If all you have is leavin'
I'm gonna need a better reason
To write you a love song today

Promise me
You'll leave the light on
To help me see
The daylight my guide, gone
Cause I believe
There's a way
You can love me
Because I say

I won't write you a love song
Cause you ask for it
Cause you need one
You see, I'm not gonna write you a love song
Cause you tell me it's make or breakin' this
Is that why you wanted a love song?
Cause you asked for it
Cause you need one
You see I'm not gonna write you a love song
Cause you tell me it's make or breakin this
If you're on your way
I'm not gonna write you to stay
If your heart is nowhere in it
I don't want it for a minute
Babe, I walk the seven seas
When I believe that there's a reason to write you a love song
Today.
Today..

Its my new fav song till i hear something better... Well today is Monday the most hated day of the week, i personally hate it, not only is the weekend over but i also have Math lessons after work so its a long day... but just for the record it's not Monday's fault that the work week begins on his shift so I don't hate the day Monday but just probably the events of.... The Weekend was nice and quiet, the way i like it , My sis didn't make the baby yet the doc said today for sure, I'm just praying that she and the baby both come out of this healthy and well. Saturday i made soup for dinner since i couldn't seem to find anything i wanted to eat, mom made cascadoo and peas and i don't like the idea of eating a fish that lives most of his life in mud so i opted out of that, even though i was called stupid by my older sis for not eating it apparently alot of ppl find the meat of this fish the sweetest ever ... not i ... back to the soup..lol.. it was chicken and while stirring it the pot almost fell off the stove apparently i was stirring too hard..who knew.. but in the end i made too much for one person..luckily my lil sis volunteered to take some off my hands. Sunday was spent getting ready for the week of work , i was supposed to do Math but didn't get around to doing it i really hope that i can muster up the will power to study this. I should stop looking at it in a negative view and just get it over with. Work today has been rather quiet so i can take some time to write this but i have a feeling that this is the calm before the storm and soon i will have a ton of stuff to do.

Hmmmm

So this is a new year, i was thinking what this blog is about. Do i just write poetry here or do i write whats going on in my life? Do i make it a mixture of the both and just delete my other blog which is dedicated to the happenings in my life or do i choose to separate the 2? I thought long and hard( 5mins) about it and decided that this blog should be dedicated entirely to poetry and the occasional story, the happenings in my life will be kept separate since its loong and probably booring but if you are smart enough you will know what is going on in my life by the poetry i write. So here's hoping that i will be a better blogger this year as opposed to last year.

I'm Back

Surprise Surprise I'm back here writing about my boring life, its 2008 and this year i'm gonna try to do a post a day so that i wont forget whats happening in my life, xmas was quiet, new years was better but still quiet the reason being that my sis is in the Hospital so everyone worried and we are indeed a bit down till the baby comes maybe this weekend... o i didn't mention thats she's having a baby..lol.. but besides that life is well nothing to complain about except the about Math exams which i have this year I'm not prepared for it at all so i have to get my ass in order i i wanna pass. Well i got loads to write lots have happened i hope i can remember it all but if i don't who cares its not like anyone reads this blog anyway... main fact being it doesn't contain porn, free music or free videos...or does it..lol..Right now i'm in work the rain is falling so I'm happy a bit cold though i should turn down the ac ...