There was once a maiden, whose lover was lost at sea
their love was so strong that she could not be
to feel his touch, to hear his voice
she really thought she had no choice
a journey she set out upon
although she knew he was gone
so to a cliff she started to walk,
where they used to sit and talk
it was there overlooking the sea
where she knew her lover must be
she sat there and cried,cried cried
time passed her and went slowly by
she just sat there and she cried
she cried for her lover, for his touch
for his voice she missed so much
she cried for the good times that they had
she cried for the memories that made her sad
she cried so hard and so much
the she herself had lost touch
she no longer knew her own name
she no longer cared just the same
she cried for days and for nights
no one but the sea heard her plight
so she stood up and took a leap
and soon she was in the deep
her lover was there by her side
and she realized that life was worthwhile
but no longer could she feel or touch
or kiss the man she loved so much
instead they laughed and ran and play
in the sea where they lay
today i heard them singing their song
i hummed along all day long.
i felt their happiness and their pain
and i knew in my heart i was to suffer the same
but will i sit there and cry myself utterly away
or will i live to see another day.
Lovers
Long time i ain't post here, been busy with work....but now i got some free time...lemme see updates.... nothing to report,work is the usual exciting at times, stressful at times but i try to enjoy it no matter what and after all i spend the majority of the day here so might as well enjoy it.
NO FCUKING WAY
Dead
I have no love interest at the moment, actually i haven't had a crush in a looooong time. I have never actually been in love with another person, well my ex comes pretty close but it more like and intense feeling of like, but then again if i haven't felt love how do i know that those feeling weren't love, i guess if it was indeed love we would still be together, but we are not. In fact i don't want to bad talk her but she's crazy..I'm not kidding, i don't trust her anymore, i don't listen to anything she says to me , i have lost all respect for her, the " so-called" friendship that we have going on isn't even working out, i don't know why we even bother talking to each other. I don't want to think about her , it makes me feel sad, angry, hurt, betrayed, all at the same time ..emotion overload if you ask me , I'm not designed to handle all that emotion at once. I'm not blaming our failed relationship solely on her, i had alot to do with it, it was i afterall who decided to end it, i hurt her so much that i feel so guilty sometimes, but thats just sometimes, time is a healer and i think that we have both gotten over it , but there are times that i truly miss her and those are the times that i would call her up and make some lame excuse that I'm calling just to say hey or one of my better ones is " hey i just missed a call on my phone from a private number was that u?" but then i remind myself that it was my decision to be rid of this relationship. So right now no love life, not even a crush, not even a celebrity crush , nothing i feel dead inside... i find myself watching movies that would evoke emotion in me, just to remind myself that i'm human, but after that i'm back to that hallow feeling ...its scary...
New Outlook on life
I got up today thinking to myself that there has got to be more to life than this usual routine of work, home etc, what can i do to make my life a little more interesting to make each day different from the previous? Well then the answer came to me .. i should live each day like it was my last, therefore i should let the ones i love know that i love them, be more friendly and kind, talk to my friends more, and most importantly take some freaking risk and chances ..mmmm sounds like a plan to me. Sometimes i feel as if I'm stuck in a rut , like in a pool of stagnant water and i don't like feeling that way, i hate it actually. I like being free like the wind.
Justify
I'm not a poet
I'm not one who can put pen to paper and come up with something brilliant
i write whats on my mind
i write how i feel at the moment
i don't think
i just write
is that wrong?
Tuesday
I got up 5.45 am this morning did some exercise I'm proud of myself I'm not a morning person i love to sleep, so for me to get up and do some push ups , thumbs up for me. Now next on my list is to stop eating so much, i eat alot, when I'm not eating I'm thinking about food, and when I'm not thinking of food, I'm watching the food network..lol.. hey i love food but i definitely have to cut down. So far the work day is busy as usual but I'm liking it when its this busy the day flies and i love when a week day flies, it brings me closer to the weekend.
Auggghh
Monday work as usual, busy as hell with Patrice gone, her workload is split between me and my co worker Lisa so its hectic, i just wish her paycheck was split up also.lol..maybe it will be one day before the year is over. I decided that I'm getting too fat, well in my terms fat is not having a flat stomach, cause I'm a pretty skinny dude, but it weird how people perceive you cause Saturday when i went chaguans i met one of my friends i haven't seen in a long time and she said i look hott, i lost weight, then i went into catwalk and my friend there asked me if i'm eating too much i getting chubby... i was like huh? one says I'm skinny, another says I'm fat, o well potatoe, potaaatoe.
Sunday
Sunday was a happy one, did nothing , well almost nothing i did clean my room a bit but most of the day was spent daydreaming, and hoping for the rain to fall but no rain, i fell asleep on my floor hugging my pillow for some reason when I'm really tired i find the floor so much more comfortable than my bed, maybe i was a dog in my last life.
Weekend
Saturday was great , went for a haircut i have a semi mohawk now, it cool but then again when am i not cool..lol.. well i went chaguanas and did a run for my life before the rain comes down and traps me in central kinda shopping spree, i needed to get some jeans, t shirts and sneakers, i left there just in time before the heavens broke about 2 pm, i have such good timing. I come home thinking that it'll be pouring here so i could curl up on my bed pop some corn and watch a movie but alas the sun was blistering here, its so weird i live in such a small country and we could have such opposite weather in two places that are in close proximity to each other, those plans were shot to hell when i was rudely informed by my mom that i have my chores to do, reluctantly i did them plus doing my laundry by the time i finish it was 5 o clock, i was tired so i showered and finally then rains came i lay down on my bed and was lulled off by the pitter patter of rain drops on my roof.
Low Voltage
So once again our building is experiencing electricity problems, this time low voltage so i was sent home early, not that I'm complaining or anything, i wanted to go get a haircut..but then remembered how it turned out the last time i was so spontaneous ( the mohawk still living) so i went straight home and looked at television, shark week on discovery channel . I like sharks, was always fascinated by them the way they can hunt and are constantly evolving. i just hope that they could survive the wrath of man and not become an extinct species like so many others. it really makes you stop and think that we are our own worst enemies that pretty soon we as a human race will self destruct then the evolution process will begin all over again, i hope then next species of intelligent life isn't as destructive, greedy and self absorbed as we are and I'm speaking generally here.
I told you that our offices was being overrun by iguanas, this guy came in, i dunno how he maybe its a her well it climbed up the bookshelf sat down, no make that sprawl out and just observed everyone not observing him until the boss finally saw him, he was caught( not by me) and set free outside, at the back of my mind i just know he'll come back and this time he might bring friends.
Holiday
Ahh the sweet smell of a holiday...or is that the stink stench of an holiday gone by. Well yesterday was emancipation it was a good one, my nanny birthday is on that day so it is tradition that all the family converge at her house and celebrate and this year wasn't any different it was a great fiesta, cake ( i ate my belly full ) ice cream ( i ate my belly full) and curry duck ( i ate my belly full..yes I'm a cow i have four stomachs..lol) my granny turned 74 but doesn't look or act like a day over 65 at times its was emotional for her to see the whole family together, i guess at one point or the other it ran across everyone's mind that we don't know if she would or anyone of us for that matter would live to see another birthday so we all enjoyed it ... but weird things happened to me before i went there like the kitchen bulb exploding jus so.. i was making mac and cheese then bam the flicking bulb blow up , it was scary, then it had like this huge thunderstorm with lots of thunder and lighting..mmm maybe thats what cause the bulb to explode who knows , but all in all the the emancipation holiday was an awesome one.