Lets say that i had a big fight with the GF, ugggh what was it about, her having a guy friend ..its a complicated story of which i have no intention of untangling right now.But trust, trust, trust..it all comes down to that . I HAVE to learn to TRUST her, it will be difficult to let myself be so vulnerable but if I am to grow as an individual i must do this, however if it turns out that i end up getting hurt.....lesson learnt....we made up after a flurry of words came gushing out of each of our mouths. If its resolved why do i still feel so uneasy? I am so scared of being played for a fool again, but i can't be the frightened little boy all the time, i have to take chances as much as possible its a new year and i want to feel as if i am living my life and not just doing the normal routine of work, home, work, home, work...bleh ....thinking about it I feel as if I'm I'm just wasting my life being a worker bee...but i am too scared to quit my job, migrate to some foreign country and live my life exploring the world. So for now i will get my thrills throwing rocks at jep nests and the occasional jumping from high places. 2009...sigh ...i so have to get myself together.
How was this wknd?
Ahhhhhhhhrrrggggg
What in god's name is going on in this country?!!! Each day we fall into the abyss of no return, 2009 is going to be one hell of a year. Anyways before i fall any further off my rocker, i am proud of myself i am sticking to my healthy eating diet, i am no longer piggin out....wait i haven't written my resolutions here yet...lol... well its much to late right now to do that, maybe tomorrow...but for now me is um proud one....and i just finished cooking my lunch to carry to work tomorrow :) yay for me....or back to the screaming.......ahhhhhhhhhh..this country is going straight to hell, i hope god gives us mercy in some form, whatever one he sees fit. Well i am off to bed.
New year resolution
One of my resolutions is not to use so much profanity, but lo and behold i couldn't find a screwdriver just now and a string of those sentence enhancers come flowing from my mouth.Gosh i feel like a failure, i didn't even make it for a day ...i jutted down my resolutions 2day. O well i guess i have to try again, i can't give up.....i haven't worked out my anger issues, i thought i did, but just now i blew a fuse, over a stupid screwdriver. Anyways what is done is done, today was my first day out to work and i have to say i treated it like the first day of school, i did nothing...well not nothing, but i didn't do my usual quota....most of my day was spent planning the exact things i wanna accomplish tomorrow.So i label "first day of work" a success...awesome, of course it helped that the Grinch of a boss was in a whole day meeting :) , yay for boring 8 hr meetings, even more yay that i wasn't required to be there.
Hello New Address
I was about to delete my blog , when i realized that all i have to do is change the address of it....that's awesome, cause underneath it all i really didn't want to get rid of it, i spent close to 2 years crying out my heart here. I just didn't want too many people reading about the crap that happens in my life...i think I'm going to change up the header and stuff and give it a new coat of paint. Tomorrow is the first day of work, after a wonderful Christmas and an even better New Year celebration its time to go back to the hell hole that i once called work, now all i refer to it as is hell because of the Biatch that rules over me, the maniac overlord...lol...i'm planning to just see the good in it and take it with a grain of salt.So here's to 2009, my year to shine or kick some ass either one works for me. I have to list my resolutions and see how that goes. Goodbye old me and hello new me.
The Time has come
I've decided to close my blog, thanks to everyone who read and left comments...all the good wishes meant alot. Its time for me to go into anonymity, maybe i'll start a new one ...someday, but for now this is goodbyes