Why do people discourage rather than encourage? Whats so hard in saying "well good for you, I'm sure once you put your mind to it , you'll be able to do it" instead of "yuh sure you want to do that? But you need to have math in order to accomplish anything, it might be difficult, yuh sure you have the money to do that?"
Let me rewind....I've decided to pursue a diploma in Business Management , I've already made all the necessary arrangements to sign up for this course in Nov. one of the requirements is a job letter stating your duties and the length of time you have been employed with said company. I'm entering through the "mature route" . I do not have a pass in Math, and i don't think i ever will since Math is such a difficult subject for me, I know the basics of course but i could never see myself needing to build a bridge anytime soon for me to want to know the rest of the concepts.
All this was of course discussed with the personnel at the school who advised me that English is given priority in this course rather than Math ( English i am good at :D) so blah blah blah long story short. My co worker insist that in order for me to be anywhere remotely successful in this course i NEED to have a pass in Math. Well i say to her "boooo" Usually words like hers would make me pack up and not do the course, but that's the old me, the new me says bitch imma show you , imma show all of you that i can be successful in whatever I've put my mind to.
So here's wishing me good luck!
Why do people ...
Funnn
I just drank 1.5 liters of "Blue Waters" water, dancing this song and pretending to be slizzard-ed.....
Muse
"And when tears are shed from the eyes of the moon, the earth will shed its skin and we will all be no more....."
So out of the blue, I'm staring at my facebook page and these words come dancing into my head. It can only mean one thing...My muse is back!!
I've been complaining alot lately that i have no motivation to start or finish anything creative, i feel as if something is missing -the force that usually pushed me forward- the same force that would randomly put thoughts in my head, words not of my own. Words that need to scribble down ASAP before they disappear. I feel as if its back , now let the fun begin :)
Weekend Heat
Although parts of the country got a serious dosage of rain, the little nook I'm in got blistering sun...just thinking about it makes me sweat a little. Both Saturday and Sunday were so extremely hot that i hardly did anything but laze around in the hammock hoping that the odd wind would pass and cool me down. In other words this weekend was uneventful....wait...*headslap* I saw my ex ....yup after 2 odd years of being broken up , our paths crossed while i was shopping with my sister.
Awkward is one way to describe it ...i did not speak to her, my sister however blabbed on and on ...I was just standing there , pretending to be looking at shampoo ( of all things) , she left, then i got the sharpest jab in my ribs and a scolding for not saying hello...I watched her walk away , something odd happened then and there ...I felt deep within me something stirring ...i don't know what it was, but it left me feeling guilty and "bad"....I quickly pushed it aside with a Kit Kat bar ....TGFC ( thank god for chocolate)
Ughhhh
Seriously people make me feel like crap sometimes, like I'm nothing, lower than nothing, like i should be guilty for just breathing....why do i always let someones words or attitude get to me like that? Ughhhhh self confidence is the word and lacking it is my game....(does that even make sense?)
Take for instance the witch, once i showed up to work on casual Fridays with an American Eagle polo...she looked at me and said in the most surprised tone " is that American Eagle? " to which i replied yes and then she further asked " like real American Eagle?" ....I of course said yes and she just rolled her eyes and walked away....it left me feeling as if i wasn't worthy enough to be wearing that polo...I mean WTF!!! Was i too low on her society pyramid to be wearing it? **sigh**
I have many other examples but i rather not relive them at this point. All i wanna do i curl up in a corner and cry. Boo on the world...
Meat Dress
I Love me some GAGA, but this meat dress ---it doesn't shock me ---but it sort of disgusts me...i mean wearing meat...raw, unprocessed meat...how was it smelling? I can hardly stand the smell at the butcher's shop so i imagine they had to have used some sort of curing process on this dress. Her statement however i love, we need to stand up for something or else we won't even be worth the meat on our bones and will be treated as such..booyah!...I still don't like the dress *queasy*
Critical Thinking
Recently i came across a book in work that's supposed to help you be a critical thinker in 25 days, well not a complete transformation but it implants the basic foundation to change your thinking. So far it really interesting and challenges me to question my mind. At the end of it I'm supposed to come out more confident and a better conversationalist....I have no idea whether it will work out or not but what the hey, I'm giving it a try. The first lesson is to show more empathy towards your fellow human being...I'll let you know how that turns out k.
Time, Time Time
Time is flying, spinning out of control..its scary...one minute it was July and suddenly its September....either I've gotten so lazy that time just decided to leave me on the way side or no one is noticing that it has in fact sped up.
While i ponder this "time warp" the good news -CHRISTMAS is closer , its 102 days till the jolly day, but the season starts for me in October. Xmas to me is a season rather than a day, so this year i intend to enjoy each day of the season, as you may have guessed its my most favest time of year, so intend to savor each moment, because of this time warp , it'll be gone in two shakes of a rabbit tail.
Mayaro run down...
The family lime was spectacular, had loads of fun just chilling with the everyone...its so nice to know that my family can get together like this...many families can't and for that I'm very thankful for them no matter how screwed up they are..lol...
Unfortunately i was stuck with breakfast duties...uggghhh...can you imagine staying up till 3am liming then having to get up at 8am to prepare Bfast for everyone, reguardless i woke up at 9 and bfast was on the table at 10.30...LOL that will soo teach them....I made French toast, potato fritatta , omelets and scrambled eggs all served on toast...of course these were all made on different mornings.
One of my favorite moments was sitting on the beach at night, the waves crashing on the shore, the clouds low and heavy with rain...me there having a hot bowl of chicken corn soup and just thinking to myself, darn the simplest pleasures are really the best.
After 5 days i was burnt to a crisp and was more than happy to be back home and in my own comfy bed, instead of one i had to share with cousins.....cousins who snore btw. Mayaro is definitely a place to make memories and this was no different . Cant wait to go back, unfortunately it'll probably be next year
Did i mention the beach on a rainy day is simply the best?!