I'm really into graphics now, its my passion but i still mark it as a hobby. According to my pals online I'm good at it, so starting from today I'll be posting up works that i've done, either of myself or friends...so here goes. I had some time on my hands cause I'm on Holidays (* more on that later) my friend Nick had given me this pic ages ago to tweak and i finally did it. He liked it but isn't into the flowers scene , I on the other hand think its quite awesome that's why i chose it as my first piece.
Graphics
October Project
Sometimes when I'm really sad, or in one of those depressed moods I turn up my Pc and listen to October Project. The haunting voice, the sad lyrics, the mellow beats...somehow it makes me feel better. Gives me a feeling that I'm not alone , that someone out there is/went through what I'm going through and survived. I will also. Guess what I'm listening to right now?...
I feel as if I'm back in Secondary School , people snickering behind my back , judging me, forming an opinion without even saying a single word to me. Sometimes i get so tired of humans, i feel like going away, somewhere far away, to escape reality, to escape the evils of this life. For now music will be my escape, and my will to survive will be my sword .....
London Pics
Here are just a few snapshots from my London Trip, it was the best time of my life....most of the time i was there, i was bloody dumbfounded. I'll remember it for the rest of my mortal years. I'm hoping to go back one day, in the winter---- the cold is awesome and i love the fashion, made me feel good about myself :)
Its Holiday time!!!
I have the next week off and I'm so excited ...why you ask? Its cause i get to sleep late for once, to lie in bed and just sleep....i know ..i get excited for the smallest reasons lol
Love
Love is the object of infinite ideas...movies, stories, songs, art, expression, movement, speech , i can go on and on , bottom line is Love has affected them all. This emotion is so grand that many crave it to be happy, many blame it for their unhappiness, and many hate it cause they presume they cant have it. To me love exists in everything, there are many types of love , many degrees of love but each of us as humans have experience love or given love in our lifetime. I'm no expert at love, i rather burn my lips with hot tea than claim to be one and dish out advice. But love fascinates me, it takes my breath away , shocks me into reality and sometimes leaves me in the fetal position. Why am i on this topic anyway? It cause last night i had a vivid , HD, full color, surround sound dream of my EX....it has me uneasy....nothing sexual, in the very least it was the opposite, just us talking and me being very very angry, i was so angry i wanted to literally kill my EX with my bare hands, but i didn't , i just sat there seething with anger, i awoke --angry--- when i did calm myself down, I was left with a feeling of guilt. How could at one point in my life, I loved my EX with all my heart and soul, i would do anything to please her, anything to be near her, anything to talk to her, I needed her in my life ...back then...now all i feel is hate towards her, genuine hate ... how did it move from one extreme to another? Sometimes i feel guilty, sometimes i feel dirty about hating her. But at the end of the day luckily I don't regret that we were together, cause she taught me more life lessons albeit the hard way in those 2 years that i would have ever learned on my own. I became a stronger, better thinking, caring individual because of her and for that i am thankful. I guess sometimes ghosts of the past do haunt you....
Obsession
Obsession: –noun the domination of one's thoughts or feelings by a persistent idea, image, desire, etc.
Guess which band I'm currently obsessed over? *jeopardy theme song plays* ...What is Florence and the Machine? Yup that's right, wanna know how i became so obsessed with this band? Of course you do..lol.. It all started while I was shopping in London ( did i fail to mention I took a trip there more to follow in a later post) walking into a store called "Brand Store" yup you guessed it everything in there was some sort of brand, walking up to the coats i was engulfed in a voice and beat that i had never heard before but instantly fell in love with it, i lingered around the store hoping that it was the radio and i would be fortunate enough to get wind of the singer, but unfortunately the store seemed to be playing a CD, i made a decision that i would be bold and ask the cashier who it was, but another roadblock, the cashier hardly spoke English ( in fact most of the ppl in England hardly speak English)
I left the store disappointed, hand full of shopping bags but disappointed .....I tried to memorize some of the lyrics to Google it but in typical Duran fashion i couldn't for the love of hades remember anything, just the haunting melody. My trip to London ended and i boarded my BA flight, it was a day flight and i was tired, i plugged in my head phones and guess what was the first song i heard when i clicked play ....yup BOOM...what are the chances of that happening? I listen to their album over and over again and by the end of the flight had memorized most of their lyrics. I Dl-ed it as soon as i got home and now everyday its what i play and i am not anywhere close to getting fed up. Every time i hear them i am taken straight back to London, its my personal getaway. In fact the songs give me so much confidence i listen to it while I'm driving to clam my nerves. Hooray for Florence and The Machine...me loves them.
Why does it not rain?
Reports coming in from my friends in the south land and errr umm central land state that last night there were heavy showers of rain in their area....only one question comes to mind and that is "Why in Zeus name didn't it rain in San Juan?" I feel so left out :( I love you rain but it seems that i'll have to wait a bit longer to feel your cold drops. Trinidad is burning down, the hills are nothing but brown dirt, no tress, no shrubs nothing...it scares me for 2 reasons , numero uno reason : The hills are ugly and i suddenly feel as if i'm living in some hot desert isle where water is more precious than gold, there is a eerie feeling in the pit of my stomach that the price food is going to skyrocket even more, and the second reason ...when the rains do come the landslips that will follow will truly be some of which this country has never seen. In the meantime i will dance my rain dance.
Footprints
Those are my actual footprints. I took this pic on the beach, early morning right after the sunrise. I was never a beach person, i prefer the river, but the more i go to the beach, the more i fall in love with it. The constant motion of the waves completely enthralls me , i sometimes get lost within the sound.
I walk alone on the beach it gives me time to think---i often think that each person is smaller than a grain of sand in the big scope of things, yet we sometimes act as though the world revolves around us. It pushes me back to reality, often giving me a new perspective. I can hardly wait to go back.
Dave's Birthday
My best friend for life Dave celebrated his Birthday on March 11th , some pals and i got together and threw him a beachouse lime. It was super awesome, cooking, drinking, running into the ocean....sober of course. It was a great lime . I hope he had an awesome time, cause i sure as hell did. Above is a pic of the cake , we literally set it on fire with all those candles...lol.. and that KFC box is mines...never could get enough of their pop corn chicken :P. Its good to be back blogging.
Good Monday Morning
How are you today? I am great, wanna know why? ....I'm driving!!! Yup i am actually driving a car, after years of being scared and worried about getting my license , i finally did last year and since then I've been practicing on and off on the roadway, finally my brother bought a car and i have his permission to use it whenever i want, permitting he doesn't need it. I drove it to work today, yup from San Juan to Caroni on the h-way. Boom who rocks? This wolf certainly does...well for today at least.
Thursday come so fast?
Isn't this week flying by , I'm simply shocked that its almost Friday as i write this-- as happy as i am, i cant help but to wonder where does the time indeed go ? Lets not get into all that hoopla at this point, I'm in a worried state....why u ask...is it because I've run out of snacks? That i no longer can get my favest aloo pie before i go to work because for some reason the lady stopped selling?... nope ....its the water situation in Trinidad, i severely doubt that the population is taking the gravity of it seriously. We had a weak rainy season last year, and this dry season is abnormally hot and dry, everywhere is either dusty, smoky ,hazy, or a combination of all three. I try my utmost best to conserve, i feel like i should be going to the grocery and hoard bottles of water before people start getting smart to the situation. In the meantime i will continue to pray for rain, my last resort would be a rain dance, for that I'll need a grass skirt....I'll work on it....whats up with all the earthquakes? is it the new fad....grrr... me so scared....
Purpose
Have you ever felt like you have everything you need but something major is still missing? That's what i am feeling like right now, I live a comfortable life..I have a great family, good friends, i've found love, got food to eat, shelter,a job, loads of ways to entertain myself....but something is missing and i can't put my finger on it. Am i crazy? am i lost? or am i just human? I miss blogging....miss writing all the silly things that happen in my life, but i seriously need to find a purpose in my life.
A purpose and a plan. Last night after 2 months of procrastination i finally made my "things to accomplish this year" list. I'll probably type it all up here later, i came across 2009 list and i'm proud to say that i accomplished 80% of the things i set out to do. Am i proud ? O hell yes...so now lets looks forward to 2010, i dubbed the year of the Earthquake. I pray that Trinidad and Tobago remains blessed :)