HOORAY

the rain is falling, there is thunder and lighting ..HOORAY its been so long since i experienced a thunderstorm, its so relaxing and puts me in such a happy mood that i could just dance. A matter of fact i think i will * awkwardly sways arms around*

SAD DAY

Today is a sad day well of course my cousin are gone, then one of my co-workers is resigning today, sad case she wicked kool and always helpful but you know people move on and i wish her all the luck in the world on her new endeavors

HOLIDAYS

Ahh it been awhile since i last posted cause i have been so freaking busy, with work and family from the states here there is no time to do anything else but work then go home and have some fun. For the past couple days i have done nothing but go to the beach or river, I'm not complaining cause it was awesome but it all ends today cause they are all going back, I'm sad .... I'll miss them , but then i could look forward to next year when they will be here once again. I did so many things over the past week its had to recall its all seems to be a blur of water, movies, running and stuff nothing major happened to me .. injuries just a couple bruises and scrapes, nothing broken. I went to the beach Saturday and while splashing around in the water all these fishes came swimming past me, real small sardines, i was like Whoa where d hell that come from they were all jumping all over me, then my cuz rushed over, i took off my t shirt and made a net like thing with it we caught like 6 but they escaped cause i forgot the tee has an arm hole so the water flowed through there and the fish with it..lol.. it was so funny , but a couple mins later we realized why the fish was acting crazy like, because there was a barracuda close by i guess he was hungry, luckily we didn't bounce him up . Well by now my cousins probably are in the airport checking in i hope they have a great safe flight. Well thats all for now till later.

Hooray Afternoon

The holidays are great even though I'm not on holidays ( i go to work each day) but when Joe and Dianne come to Trinidad to spend some time its like holidays for the whole family. Yesterday i went to the beach at about 4.30 in the afternoon, as soon as i got home from work i was pulled into the bus and taken away to Macrepe Beach, I'm not a big fan of the beach..too much salt in the water, too much sun and way too much sand... the things that make the beach the beach, but yesterday was so much different , with the sun going down the water was clear and warm...it was heaven *sigh* i had soo much fun even though we spent about 2 hours there it was great, after a hard days work to go and get a nice salt soak, to see the sun setting over the horizon, so relaxing ...nice...lol... I wonder what they have planned for today.

Scotia Banks Blows

Today i went to the San Juan Branch and the tellers are so freaking slow, they are always slow whether there are 5 people or a million the stupid tellers just wont pick up the pace a bit and worse yet its like two of them close their windows and went for lunch, it wasn't even 12.00 yet, it just goes to show that the bank thinks we need them more than they need us. I hate it. Why don't i switch banks you ask, cause from what i have heard the others are just as bad even worse, especially Royal however Republic tellers move swift but say what after waiting for what seemed to be a billion years, i finally dusted the cobwebs that settled on my t-shirt and did my transaction, thank god i only need to go to the bank once per month..Amen.. the next thing that totally pissed me off was the teller that was dealing with me she was a sickening fake friendly, i dunno if you have ever encountered a person like that, maybe at the store or KFC or something, you know the person is speaking to you in the most pleasant voice smiling and all that but it comes off so fake that it makes you irritated yeah i encountered one of that today, i held my cool did my stuff and was out till next month suckers....did i mention Scotia Bank San Juan SUCKS!!!!!!

AWESOME WEEKEND

This weekend was an incredible one, Friday started off with sooo much anticipation that i could have just screamed, i think i actually did, waiting on Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows, finally i got my hands on the book and read it for 15hours straight i didn't eat i didn't sleep, i was however distracted by my lil cousins wanting to play but i finished it on Saturday and i have to say that i couldn't be happier in fact i'm estactic just thinking about it but i'll leave that to a separate post cause i so much to freaking say about that, anyways on Saturday was my cuz Joe birthday who came from the US so it was party time, we planned a surprise party for him but somehow he found out and well it wasn't a surprise anymore but we had fun none the less, the preparation before the party was time consuming but still riding on my Harry Potter high i didn't complain, we spent most of the daylight hours putting up decorations and cooking (i didn't help with the cooking) at the end the house looked hott.lol. then it was party time, we had about 50 people over not including the family. It was so much fun!!! we had Tassa, a dj and everything, we partied till about 3 in the morning , then we went river on Sunday. That day wasn't my luckiest seeing that i got hit with a ball on my head not once, or twice but three times, then i ran head first into my cousin Ross, then he kicked me at the back of my head, then to top it all off i got an elbow underwater to my eye compliments of my other cuz Brandon, my left eye turned blue, and was swollen, its still bluish black but no longer swollen, thankfully. But other than that it was awesome, swimming, flipping, diving, going swimming races, then playing water bending ( its a game we made up, basically its us splashing each other in the face with water until on of us gives up) then it was time to go home.OMG i forgot that i was sick on that day with an upset stomach but it didn't matter cause i had fun plus bush was all around, just in case i had to go. Got home got even more ill, maybe because i exerted myself so much, fell asleep in pain woke up queasy but still went to work, today Tuesday i still feel slightly sick i think its finally time i take something for it....o didn't i tell u i hate taking medication so i prefer for my bodies natural defenses to take it course so i only resort to medicine when absolutely necessary or when i'm in unbearable pain.

Dancing

I dance cause I'm free
I'm free because I'm strong
I'm strong because I think
I think because I hope
I hope because I care
I care because I'm Human
I'm human because I Love
I love because I am
I am because I Live
I live because I breathe
I breathe because I'm Calm
I'm Calm because I Sway
I Sway because I Dance

Rainy Thursday

God its rainy today...YESSSS!!!! I hope it stays so whole day, its nice and cool and the rhythm of the rain against the roof is soo soothing. The road is flooded though and it isn't even pouring, i guess its all the garbage that clogged up the drains, then people will go blaming everyone but themselves when in fact its our own doing. Anyways i don't want to get myself down by thinking of that, i have another blog that i can vent about that on..lol. But its raining so i'm in a good mood

Awesome Wednesday

Yesterday was an awesome Wednesday, I usually don't like Wednesday cause the radio station that i listen to 95.1 came up with the "great" idea of playing only songs from the 80's, i have nothing against the eighties but comon a whole freakin day!!! So on that day I'm constantly switching radio stations so its a menace, anyways yesterday i got my Digicam and god its awesome!!!!! I love it, the display screen is huge and its so thin and elegant, can't wait to start taking shots. Plus yesterday brings us one day closer to Harry Potter 7 and i can't wait to get my hands on it and start reading. YAY for Wednesday..well this one at least.

Tuesday

Today I'm super excited and anxious, my cousins from the US are coming over and they are suppose to bring a digital camera for me and i cant wait, you may think that this is my first digicam but it is not i had a KODAK Z730 and o how i love that camera, i took it almost everywhere with me, and couldn't stop taking shots, but then i did something so incredibly stupid that i was beginning to think that I'm retarded, i took an Ac adapter and stuck it into the Dc sloth...soooooo stupid and that was the end of my camera and would you believe that i did that a day before my sis wedding so there was chaos in my in my mind cause i wanted to remember everything, so i held a frantic search to get a camera borrowed and luckily my sis had a friend who had a friend, whose boss was kind enough to lend us one ...yeah i know..lol.. but i still tried to fix my camera and so went on another quest to find someone to fix it and boy was that difficult , it's like all over selling it but no where fixes it, finally i found a guy in Long Circular mall who said he'll look at it, unfortunately it cant be fixed and i haven't gone to collect it yet, but i will cause i wanna keep it for sentimental reasons, it did cost alot of money, but the pics it took , i think it paid for itself, so now i'm expecting to get a CANON POWERSHOT SD750, which is suppose to be ultra compact, don't worry i wont do anything dumb, i think i will take extra good care of this one, like my life depended on it.

Rain

How i wish it would rain, its been so long since it felt those tiny drops against my skin.
Its like every time the clouds gather above the wind sweeps its away, like its mocking me
I cant remember the last time i had a whole day of rain, rain makes me happy. Its so wet and cold ..lol..duh. its fun, it puts me in a serious mood for relaxation. How i wish it would rain.....BTW this isnt a poem.

My Encounter

Today i was in work having a sip of water at the water cooler just staring aimlessly into space when my eyes caught sight of something that looked like a piece of electrical cord protruding from behind our inside gate, i really didn't pay it much mind at first cause we recently had electrical work done to our building and i thought that it was just faulty work of the electrician but how i was wrong cause a few seconds after this "cord" started to twitch, moving like a cats tails when it has its prey in sight, at once my imagination got hold of me and i was transported back to my first week o f work, i was sitting in my office when all of a sudden the celing tiles were pulled up into the ceiling, it was freaky just as sudden as it happen the tiles were lowered back into place, i convinced myself that it was my imagination, but the next day the same thing happened only it wasn't all the tiles just a couple here and there it looked as if someone was pulling them back and looking down on me, so i was pretty freaked out , then as abrupt as it happened the tiles fell back into place. When i went home i came up with this theory that there were gremlins living in our roof and that they were waiting to get me alone to strike, luckily i share the office with my co worker ( i have such an imagination) so the next day it happened again finally i looked over to my co worker who didn't seem to notice, finally i was like " dude is it just me or is this roof really freaky?" he started to laugh and said i was wondering when you were going to say something, apparently whenever there is gusty winds outside somehow it finds it way inside and has that effect on out roof, so there was my gremlins theory shot to hell,but this morning it all came rushing back seeing this cord twitching, i stepped back with my eyes on it ... swirling around me were thoughts of what it could be, so being so curious i stepped closer, cup in hand (with my water) so it became clear that it was no cord but a tail that was attached to a HUGE iguana, i was shocked ( once again my gremlins theory shot to hell) how did that get in here, and boy was he acting nervous. it looked scary all green/brown eyes locked onto mine i was scared to move for it was above me any sudden movements and it could jump on me and kill me ( well not kill but scare the hell out of me) i inched my way slowly back and it just stared tail twitching, i kept moving backwards, cautiously finally i was a good distance away , the iguan still there up to this point i haven't told anyone i have seen it cause they may want me to get rid of it , which I'm not up for especially taking into consideration that when i was younger an iguana whipped me across the face with its tail so yes i fraid d damn thing. So its there and I'm here just the way i like it, but somehow in the back of my mind i know its gonna find its way in to here and then we'll have to battle. OK I WAS RIGHT THE FLIPPING THING SEND HIS FRIEND HERE A HUGE GARDEN LIZARD RUNNING AROUND IN THE OFFICE , BUT I GOT COURAGE ( ATE MY SPINACH) AND CHASED IT OUTSIDE , btw i really did eat spinach i bring bahagi for lunch.

Embarrass

Okay i have had alot of Embarrassing things happen to me , so i decided to list them so i could remember them and compare which one was more embarrassing so th most recent one is..... The Office Administrator was speaking to me concerning some work so there i go sipping on my water when all of a sudden i feel a tickle in my throat and boom there i go spewing water all over my desk and on the floor, i couldn't help myself it just happened like the water went down the wrong tube, i looked up and there was the O.A looking at me like i going crazy, she did ask if i was ok, and if she could get me some water...ummm in case you didn't notice water is the problem here. It was embarrassing but now its funny.

MoHawk

So once again my work building has no electricity, T and TEC was supposed to re connect us yesterday afternoon but true Trini fashion rains they didn't come, so we called and they said that they will be here by 8.30 am... we were sent home at 12.00pm ( they hadn't arrive yet) I'm not complain another day to go home and relax, the half day of work was tuff, first it was sooo freaking hot i was beginning to think that our building was next to the sun, then all the manual work i had to do... you know writing up all those bills ( i lazy eh..lol) plus my phone went dead so i couldn't charge it, i would have freaked out like people usually do when they realize that they left their phones home or it went dead on them, but i didn't cause i had my digicel which was at full charge, plus I'm not a phone freak, if its on me YAY, if not so what...anyway i was headed home and decided to get a haircut, on impulse i went, so sitting on the chair the lady ( my hairdresser..wow that sounds so gay..lol) asked if i wanted the usually i said yes at first but then quickly change my mind, i then proceed to to explain what i thought would be a kool hairstyle, but it was not ...i got a Mohawk, yes you read right a Mohawk, it looks kool but i miss all my spikes so as soon as this grows out i will be back on planet spike, hopefully i wont have to face any of my friends until then cause i could already hear them laughing.

Stupid

Today I'm feeling stupid, like I'm missing my brain or something. Its weird cause usually i don't feel stupid i just feel dumb and i attribute that to all the going ons in my life. Have you ever felt like the whole world is spinning like some sort of creepy merry go round around you but the thing is you're not on any of the horses you're in the center completely still, so people looking in on you would think that you are on the ride but actually you are not ....yea i feeling like that today. I hope i get out of this stupid phase and get a grip on myself..I'm so busy these days with work, school and trying to figure out what the hell I'm going to do with my life.

Crazy

O gawd i bawling today electricity was disconnected form our offices something to do with T and TEC having to change a line. This time of year is the busiest for the company i work for since we deal with books so we had alot to do today and it suddenly became very clear to me that the saying "you don't miss the water until the well runs dry" holds so very true, every task i had to do was manual, invoices, proformas , price checking all of it manual....it was horrible i didn't realize before how much we depend on electricity and computer to accomplish our daily tasks. It was chaos in my office literally people we starting to look like little blind mice walking around, trying to check goods and prices...it was kind of funny actually ..me included...when the phone went dead that was probably the worst part cause now if i had to communicate with the departments upstairs for whatever reason i had to run up the stairs, it really made me appreciate electricity. But finally we were sent home by our kind boss..lol.. a whole hour and half early which was great i came home and turned on the Tv only to hear about a severe weather warning ..i was like HUH? apparently everyone knew except me cause i came online and a couple of my online buddies told me, so severe weather warnings was issused and as customary of us Trinis we panicked , there was traffic in the roads like is some sort of hurricane approaching , places closing early, people filling up on gas , way over reaction if you ask me it was only the ITCZ passing over us and so far as i sit here and write this no rain or wind has begun to affect my area as the news bulletin said it would, all there is, is a cloudy sky . But who knows what will happen later or in the morning, that brings me to another point I love the rain but it pisses me off when all through the night no rain but as soon as the alarm goes off the rain begins to pour , so now i have to get up off my warm comfy bed and go out into the cold world..(my house) and then to work so i gots no time to enjoy the rain ..which for me means sleeping while it pours outside.

Weekend

Another weekend has passed me and i got to say that this one wasn't as a bored as previous. It was great actually after the usual chores, i took some time for myself something i love to do. I stuck in a movie into my pc pulled up the bed and had a nice relaxing afternoon. I also got some reading accomplished, i'm currently reading a book called "lion boy" , about a boy who has the ability to speak cat, his parents are kidnapped and he has to find them but he only help he's getting is from cats, somehow he ends up on a circus ship and well its a pleasant read so far. The writing is not very descriptive the author leaves much to be desired, somehow the book doesn't entrapped me or sweep me away to another world as quickly as other books i read but the more i read the more it becomes clearer to me that the author wants you to use your own imagination and fill in the blanks so you're sort of the co author or something like that.lol. Mark this weekend as a productive relaxing one.

Silence

Silence is when i don't hear you laugh
Silence is when i don't hear you sigh
Silence is when i cant hear you whisper i love you
Thats silence
A million sounds engulf me, echoing through my ears
but if i don't hear your voice
its nothing but silence
A thousand melodies swirl around me, like smoke from a flame
trapping me like a cocoon
But if i don't hear your voice its silence
Silence around me, silence within me beating within my cells
you are no longer here so i take this silence and push it with in me
drowning it
Only to realize that i have drowned within it
with in this silence.

Happy Home

"Happy Home"

In my happy home I barely breathe
In my lovers arms I find relief
And there's a sky that's changing and a bird that sings
I never once in my wayward life was heading to run out

In my lovers arms I wait for morning
I beg my god to speak and tear me apart
I'd lay down my body I'd lay down my arms
I never once in my sweet short life meant anybody harm

In my happy home i read the signs
In my lovers arms I move in time
There's no more crying and there's no more lies
I never once in my sweet short life was waiting for desire

And there's no more crying
And there's no more pain
I never thought for one second I'd have nothing left but shame

In my happy home I barely breathe
I never once in my wayward life was heading to run out

I love this song and I'm obsessed with this band, its one of my favorites. Her voice , the guitars, the drums , everything, and the lyrics...wow its just blows me away. I have all their albums and can spin it days on end in my player, i just don't seem to get fed up. This song speaks to me, it stirs up an emotion that i just can't seem to describe. It wicked kool.

Questions

Why do i feel sad, is it because my heart has been broken and can't fit back together?
Is it because i loved and lost?
Why do tears fill my eyes?
is it because i can still hear your voice in my ear?
or is it because i can still feel the warmth of your body next to mines or maybe , just maybe i can still feel your lips aganist mines?
How did we grow apart?
why didnt we see.... but its too late now..
All i'm left with now are questions

Real 911 Calls, "BELIEVE" it or not!!

Dispatcher: 9-1-1 What is your emergency?
Caller: I heard what sounded like gunshots coming from the brown
house on the corner.

Dispatcher: Do you have an address?
Caller: No, I have on a blouse and slacks, why?


Dispatcher: 9-1-1 What is your
emergency?
Caller: Someone broke into my house and took a bite out of my ham
and cheese sandwich.
Dispatcher: Excuse me?
Caller: I made a ham and cheese sandwich and left it on the kitchen
table and when I came back from the bathroom, someone had taken a
bite out of it.
Dispatcher: Was anything else taken?
Caller: No, but this has happened to me before and I'm sick and tired of it!


Dispatcher: 9-1-1 What is the nature of your emergency?
Caller: I'm trying to reach nine eleven but my phone doesn't have
an eleven on it.
Dispatcher: This is
nine eleven.
Caller: I thought you just said it was nine-one-one.
Dispatcher: Yes, ma'am nine-one-one and nine-eleven are the same thing.
Caller: Honey, I may be old, but I'm not stupid.


Dispatcher: 9-1-1 What's the nature of your emergency?
Caller: My wife is pregnant and her contractions are only two
minutes apart
Dispatcher: Is this her first child? Caller: No, you idiot! This is her husband!

And the winner is..........

Dispatcher: 9-1-1
Caller: Yeah, I'm having trouble breathing. I'm all out of breath.
Darn....I think I'm going to pass out.
Dispatcher: Sir, where are you calling from?
Caller: I'm at a pay phone. North and Foster.
Dispatcher: Sir, an ambulance is on the way. Are you an asthmatic?
Caller: No
Dispatcher: What were you doing before you started having trouble breathing?
Caller: Running from the
Police.

Thoughts

Have you ever had to pee so bad that when you started you didn't finish until like 5 mins after, and wonder how on earth all that liquid was in me?? .... Yeah that happened to me today..lol

Busy Day

OMG this day was busy as hell, phone ringing, faxes coming through, like a million emailed inquires, sometimes i feel like just screaming and running out of here...but then reality hits me, first off if i scream no one will hear me cause i'm alone in this office, then if i do decide to run away where will i go and for how long could i go there , i'll have to get back home before night fall because i'll probably be hungry, so thats the end of that thought..lol..

I'm glad that today was busy that way the time flew and before i knew it, it was almost time to go home and relax for a bit.

Weekend

So this weekend was a major bore, i don't get bored easily cause i always have some stupid thought or fantasy running through my head, either of me getting up one day to realize that I'm a mutant who can alter the weather at will, or me meeting one of my great great great great great grandkid from the future coming here to meet me to warn me that I'm suppose to put in gears some major event that would alter time and the govt has sent back some robotic warrior to kill me only to realize that the robotic warrior has already infiltrate my life and acting as one of my friends... yeah i know not original ideas but at least it can get me away from reality for a while, but this weekend i did absolutely nothing besides if your counting washing and cleaning my room things to do, but other than that nothing, not even a movie or cartoons or anything. I'm beginning to think that I'm getting lazy ... ha as if that is a possibility ... i cant sit still for more than a couple minutes, and after that I'm running about with my lil bro or harassing any one of my sisters. Usually on the weekend i would go somewhere or spend it with my girlfriend (ex) so i guess not having her in my life i have to remember what i used to do before i met her, we were together for like a year so it'll take some readjusting hopefully i can get back into gears before the next weekend hits .

DROWNING IN YOU

Drunk on your smile, I feel lost
The way you eyes sparkle in the dark like broken glass on a sandy beach
i love your smell, it swirls around me rolling over me like the tide, filling my lungs
I'm drowning in you
i close my eyes and fall asleep, engulfed in your arms, breathing you with each gasp of air
Loving every minute that I'm there drowning in you