What i cooked...

Remember the Fish and Potatoes i made well here are the pics....I am NOT a food photographer. Looks yummy none the less. That spoon should have been a fork. lol

I've got a story...

Yesterday my friend Dave related a story to me of how his neighbor was robbed. Broad daylight while the guy was walking home he was robbed. This country really gone to the dogs, but there is a sliver lining. The car the bandit was driving shut down, since they guy was only a few houses away from his uncle he ran and got help. Arriving at the scene, the car was locked and bandit gone. The police was called in, the neighbour was taken to the police station where who would he bounce up? MR BANDIT, reporting his car stolen....yuh see how them bandit smart. The police confronted him and he denied it. When he was searched, his removable deck from his car was on his possession,( he doesn't want to get it stolen?) how it got there he doesn't know, after some interrogation he confessed, the neighbours stolen phone and wallet was already given to one of his partners. He was arrested, finally some good news eh.

Homework?

Graphic Arts class is later and once again , i did not do my home work....is some sort of pattern forming? I just didn't feel like going on Corel Draw to outline a couple clip arts...ugghhh, not only was i feeling lazy, using that particular software gets me all angry, I'm so in tuned with Photoshop's keyboard short cuts that when i attempt it ( by habit) it causes Corel Draw to go berserk. I guess I'll have to make up some sort of excuse , or go to class extra early and rush it down. Sadly i think it'll be the second option. O well , I'll learn one way or the other. Hooray for learning, and graphic arts.

Rainy rainy yea yea

Kelly Clarkson's new single "Already gone" has me sprung, I know it sounds like "Halo" by Beyonce...maybe that's why i took to it so quickly....why am i writing about this? I have no idea..lol.. it just popped into my head. I miss Michelle Branch, I love her music...gawd where am i going with the post? Anyways Last night was incredibly awesome, I cooked...yes I get the sudden urge now and then. I made fish, potatoes and creamy garlic sauce....surprise surprise.....I almost fainted when i tasted it, twas good, even brought some for lunch......I took a pic also, will post it up later.After i made dinnerlunch...I played in the rain at twilight....amazing as usual...showered, crawled into my bed and just enjoyed the warmness it. Mom made sawine, that was a plus. Rainy days are always the best.

Above: Mr zee zee

Here are some pic from my Graphic Arts class, ok ok i know some of it sucks like major ass but considering i did it all frm scratch , I'm sort of proud, not of the cube thou...aint no way in hell i can be proud of that ..lol...

A Steel Pan

A benz..lol..

Mr cube...lol..

Slipping Slowly

I've probably said this before but GARBAGE is my all time favorite band. I find comfort in Shirley Manson's voice, there's a certain rawness in her lyrics, and the actual sound of her band just pulls at my emotions. Even though some of her songs are outright depressing, i do find some sort of comfort in it which makes me feel better. I can relate. Lying on my bed i always get lost in dark fantasy worlds , sitting on a raft on the stormy ocean, listening, i find calm, that's the power of music.

Are you angry?

My GF thinks I'm a beast, at least that the impression I'm getting. Sitting yesterday quietly, enjoying the silence between us ,she cautiously asked" are you angry?" to which i replied no, " are you sure?" umm yes...somethings wrong why are you so quiet... are you upset over something? no I'm not...OK....Few minutes later, "tell me what has you so upset". umm I'm not upset, come on i know you, why are you angry did i do something? No I'm not angry.... It went on like this. Clearly me sitting quietly is an indication of anger. Later that night, I'm on msn chatting with her, the same questions are being asked "why I'm angry, why I'm upset, was it something she said or did?" Is this the outward projection that i give, as a very angry person? So angry my gf constantly needs to be reassured that my silence is not hiding a brimming, about to explode pot of anger? Suddenly i feel a mixer of depression and being ashamed, I'm trying really hard to be "happy' to the point of faking it, but it seems that I'm already fitted in to a emo mold...the song of my life *Trick is to keep breathing* by garbage.

Meditate

In order to try and quell my rage, and bring some positivity into my sometimes dark life, I've decided to get back to my meditating roots. It was a regular thing for me a couple years ago, when i was in my uncontrollable state. It helped, so much so that i didn't find the need to continue until now, when i am once again letting my anger get the best of me.So far I've done 3days. I shower, take off all the lights, light a single scented candle, let the music of Enya softly hum in the background. Sitting quietly, i focus on my breathing, then clear my head of all thoughts, i then repeat "i am at peace with myself and my surroundings" this leads into a talk with god, then me focusing on my goals. It immensely relaxing, so far my anger fuse has gotten longer, awhile to get angry, but every little helps. Lets see how it goes.

Yummy yummy i got love in my tummy

Its thundering, there are flashes of lightening and I'm walking on the electrically charged air :), Just came back from lunch with my hunny,its amazing what a little interaction with a loved one during working hours can do. I feel as if I've just gotten here, yup that's the kind of energy I'm carrying.If the rain falls this will be the best Tuesday ever! On the topic of weather, this has got to be the quietest Hurricane Season I remember. Nothing , not even a tropical disturbance lurks on the horizon. I'm not complaining or anything, but what if they decide to make up for lost time next year? and by "they" i refer to the hurricanes.

Its Mickey's Magic Show

O my lorsh, if i hear that " its mickeys mickeys magic, mickeys mickeys magic, o yea" one more time on the radio i am going to serious have a BF ( bitchfit) . When i close my eyes i hear it , i see mickey running around, and Minnie in the background dancing, ugggghhhh they are driving me insane, i swear i know every single line to that commercial. Honest.

Coup

Today being the anniversary of the attempted coup by the Jamat al muslimeen, the office was abuzz with talk of how each person recalls it. I was like 7 when it occurred. I remember something coming over the television, my mom telling me to run up the road and call my dad, who was liming by the bar...sadly when i reported to him that the red house was burning down i was greeted with a whole lot of laughter from the other men there, asking if i was crazy, I kept insisting over and over again with such urgent in my voice the barman , was forced to turn on his T.V, then realizing that it was true, the bar emptied as everyone ( drunk and sober) headed off home. The days to follow, i remember the neighbors coming together to ' lock down" the village, no one could get in or out. There was alot of looting, and in my tiny head, free candy. Many of the warehouses where I'm located was looted, I remember the chocolates, perfume and Vienna sausages....then my mom took us to our grandparents house in central, where we stayed till everything went back to normal, my dad stayed home. It was an exciting time for me, i was none the wiser of how dangerous the situation was. I'm thankful that it didn't turn out much worse. I've sure seen alot of stuff in my life time.

Its 18

lately the gf and i have been at each others throat. The slightest thing would set me off and i blow up like a huge balloon and pop, my temper gets the better of me. Sitting one day,i wondered how did we move from i cant get enough of you to i cant stand you. I asked for time away to gather my thoughts, but couldn't get through an entire day without calling her. We needed to talk, to sit , face to face and talk. But that didn't occur till Saturday, when i vomited all my feelings that i hid. Sitting there completely embarrassed at what i just said, waiting fro her to say its over, but she didn't, instead the look in her eyes invited me to say more. And i did, we both talked , alot was said, alot was accomplished. Today marks 18 mnths since we have been together, and I'm looking at it a a new beginning.I've made a list of things i need to do, in order to keep the spark alive. So to my love, HAPPY 18. ( she sometimes reads)

The cash problem

That dollar below looks awfully real, like i could print it up and buy myself a pack of corn curls.I feel the sudden urge to say i wont, so no one will label me a potential counterfeiter. On the topic of money,i keep hearing that inflation is on a downturn, and prices should be following but have yet to see it in the supermarkets or feel it in my wallet. Is the gov't feeding the public false information or are business owners just plain greedy? Maybe we are the ones to blame because we don't exercise our buying power, i know of people who will buy regress if a tin of juice was 5 bucks last week and 8 this one.It doesn't matter to them. If we take a stand and say no, would the store owners be forced to decrease the price? but alas for every one person who says no, there are 3 probably who says 'yea whatever" I really hope that prices decrease so i can save some money, right now my spending savings are nil, i blew it all Saturday, was worth it though.Maybe soon, I'll begin to see a decrease if so hooray, if not, I'll just have to continue to bite the dollar as hard as possible.

Weekend

This weekend flew past like a crazy wild duck .It was filled with emotional highs and lows, sadness, gladness and a bit of madness.Where shall i start Friday was busy hell in work, I had another large project on my plate with a deadline date of Today, luckily with determination and loads of help from the administrator, i completed it on time, skipped lunch, breakfast and all my water breaks but i did it, and am very proud. So technically i can count Friday as a good day since i was so occupied with that project the day went by pretty much unnoticed. I went home, fought with my gf, ate cause i was so depressed, did my laundry at 10pm because i was unable to sleep, i even hung it out also, had to fight up with a couple toads roaming the yard, but i did it none the less. Saturday, i headed off to Chaguanas, with gf in tow. Got my brand new Mohawk hairstyle, had lunch and blew out $1000.00 on unnecessary stuff, but i sort of enjoyed spending that cash, i had been saving it for about 3 months now so it was good to treat the gf and I to lunch and a couple other goodies, now i'll start from the beginning, all over again. Gf and i had a "discussion", went rather well, more on that later. Sunday was errrr, ummm...a lazy day, i pretty much spent the entire day eating everything in sight, and getting ready for the week ahead. Gf came over we hung out, and now I'm in work once again....excitement at its highest...lol...

Who are you to judge

As i stand here ,the good within me glowing
I'm stripped naked, every part of my soul showing
The human, the animal
The dark and the pure
The saint, the joker, the fool and the whore

am i not a child of god
One born of this earth
Do i not have a mother
who has given me birth
I sit in silence and pray
Am i not allowed to seek god out in my way?


Who shall speak and read me my rights
Who will cover my eyes and show me night
Who shall bind my hands, and cut off my tongue
Push me in the square where i belong
Who with their weapons, their force and their lies
Who with their false hope and their alibis

you?
With words of ignorance
with words of hate
with your darken light,and your blind faith
You
with the uneducated mind...
you will not be given any of my time

My battleline is drawn, its a circle you see
It prevents your hate from getting to me
so keep your acid tongue and swallow you spit
Cause see me here I'll never quit
I'll rise like the Phoenix over and over again
You are the person i no longer call friend
For you are not god, and you cannot judge
This is my stance and i will never budge.

Last Hp Rant: Dumbledore

Why I love him:

He can kick anyones ass in the wizarding world
He calls Voldemort - Tom- that's just a kick to the balls
Has a pet phoenix
Is totally powerful
Has a wry sense of humor

Why I hate him:

I don't the man dead , cant hate him

My HP Rant : The Baddies

Love: Lord of everything evil
Can talk to snakes
Came back from the dead
Bald and stylin
Makes people scared just by his name
His dramatic hand movements , a little gay but dramatic none the less

Love: They move around in awesome smoke
Doesn't have a heart
Loves Black fashion
Cool Sliver masks
Can go into a store get what they want and not pay for it

Love: Bitchy Attitude
Not scared of Harry potter
Wears Green
Cool Whitish hair
Has Minions

Love: His "arrgh" attitude
His cold stares
The fact everyone knows he is evil but he still works in the ministry ( familiar?)
Carries a Cane

Love: Her hair style
Looks like she crawled out of the grave- sexily
Has a wonderful cackle
Crazy
Speaks softly, then loudly like little red from 2 stupid dogs
Will kill her own mother if voldemort told her to

Love: His voice, so smooth and cold
His " ha don't cross me" attitude
The fact that he swishes his cape all over the place
Genius at everything
His Coat
His dramatic entrances and exits

In case you noticed , there are no hates, that's because i cant hate the baddies, they are awesome.

My HP Rant: Ron

Why I love him

He's the comedy relief in the whole story
His hair is red
Comes from a strong family base
Sticks up for his friends
Constantly eats
Likes to panic
Oblivious to girls

Why I hate him:

Creepy no color eyelashes
Never gains weight
Clothes - need i say anything else
Ghastly pale
So many wizards and witches in his family but he always screws up spells

My HP Rant: Hermonie

Why I love her:

She's the brains of the bunch
She knows spells beyond her years
She proves that being muggle born doesn't mean you cant be an awesome witch
She has nice skin
She knows how to keep guys in check
She's just as brave as any of them
She identifies a stupid idea and still goes with it

Why I hate her:

Too bossy
The actress hesitates every time she says a line for a millisecond
Know it all syndrome
Needs to wear something other than grey
Can talk someone to death

My Harry Potter Rant...: Harry

I'm gonna give a quick run down of the why's i love Harry Potter, cause i feel the hyper, omg, get my wand, throw potion at people, pretend i'm under my invisible cloak feeling fading and its being replaced with "o i have to wait over a year to see the other one" feeling--this refers to both the book and movie.

Why I love him:
He's got that awesome lightening scar
He's the chosen one
He's awkward around girls
He's has a phoenix feather tail wand
He accepted his destiny
He is brave, and loyal
He is adventurous
He is awesome at quidditch
The actor playing the character, has him on key.

Why I hate him:
He's sometimes is full of himself
He's a little slow with putting clues together
He thinks that he is alone, when he is not
He's can be bitchy towards his real friends.
He should learn to get a change of clothing style now and then.

It Happened!!!

*takes deep breath* It finally happened , i saw it after how many years of waiting , it happened today...no not losing my virginity, that train has passed....Harry Potter!!!! O lord i dunno where to being , how to end, what to put in the middle....calm down, calm down.....Today was the slowest moving day ever each minute felt like an eternity, I probably called my GF 100 times in excitement, she being as excited as i, was only too keen to entertain my random outbursts , finally 4pm happened . but not before the day's work gave me the biggest headache and pain in the neck ever ( buts that a different post) Rushing home i frantically emptied my wardrobe looking for something clean smelling, gosh i have got to learn to wash my going out clothes, it took sometime but i finally found a clean pair of jeans and a tee.The gf wanted to arrive at Movie Towne for 5, yup 5 for a 7pm show ( little too excited or good planning?) she spoke of large crowds, and getting crummy seats, unfortunately for her because of the traffic, we arrived there around 6.10pm , you would think it was good timing, but the line had already started to snake much to my dismay, holding on to the hope that i would be able to push through some of the crowd when they finally started letting people in, i waited, but devil the people are so well mannered and organised, by the time i got into the theater, many of the good seats were taken, i ran up the stairs frantically searching for 2 free seats for us, but everyone was like "sorry this is taken, this is taken, this is taken"...you get the idea, i panicked, running back down i did not want to end up in the pit for 2 reasons---one the gf would probably bitch slap me, and two i hadn't pictured myself starting straight up at harry, so i pounced like a wild child at the next 2 available seats, which were located at the very bottom of the stadium like seating, people would think that these were crappy seats, but o it was not, the screen was well visible, but the sound was amazing, its like nothing i ever experienced in my cinema going life, each rumble shook me to the core, were we getting the full blast of the sound effects, at first the gf didn't like the seats, but after the first ruble, she was like " hmm it ain't that bad" what a save for me. The movie began and i was in Ecstasy for the next 2.5 hours, of course pigging out while at it. The movie was mediocre , not much action , and it deviates alot from the book, but i had to keep reminding myself that it was an adaption , it did however set up alot of open plot lines for the last 2 films, plot lines that will make alot of sense to the common muggle who came out of the movie thinking "huh?", it was as usual a pleasure seeing the actors and actresses with their strong British accents on screen bringing the characters to life,A tear was shed for the headmaster by yours truly, i feel robbed that there was no funeral for him, but hoping that the next movie will begin with one, its only fitting. My appetite is satiated for the while, now i am hoping that Nov 19th 2010 comes here tomorrow.

HAAAAARRRRYYYYYY POOOTTTEEERRRR!!

TODAY'S THE DAY!!! OMG I AM SO EXCITED, ITS HARRY POTTER DAY! Although i was supposed to stay at home, my unfortunate tummy sickness on Monday ruled that out ..now i have a excruciating wait till the 7pm show in MT, which i think is sold out, only the 10.45 and 12 o'clock shows are advertised. I can't wait, i know there are parts of the movie where i will be disappointed because they never remain true to the book, but to see it all come to life is satisfaction enough for me. My gf bought advanced tickets for us, so now its just to get through this workday then off to the movies at 5.30 to line up ( yes i am that desperate) , I'm so excited i could pee....

huh?

Does my email addy look desperate and stupid? I found this in my inbox, not spambox, but my inbox.....

hello
l am miss safina madhib I saw your profile today at() and i found you worthy to be mine as some one whom i can lay on his arms as long as love is concern,caressing and teassing you all the night long .if you are interested in knowing more about me and for me to send you some pictures of mine,please contact me thus;(madhibs@yahoo.com)
my dear,l want you to know that distance,age or colour does not matter but love matters alot in life.waiting to hear from you soonest.

madhibs@yahoo.com

Thanks
safina


She speaks of love, sex and not caring how ugly i am...if that aint true love i dunno what is.....o ms Safina ours is a love that will forever be forbidden.O btw she found my profile in a circle...the circle represents the world, my profile is in the world....lol....

D cooking....

I was ill yesterday, something in the water i think. My stomach was up in arms.It was nice to stay at home, could have done with out the pain though, plus the rain poured after lunch so if that wasn't a sign to crawl into bed i dunno what is. I have good news and bad news, I'll start with the good news first and the bad news will be in a subsequent post. The good-- i thoroughly enjoyed the cooking.I was very if-y whether or not to go and honestly my mind was made up to stay at home, but after some nudging from the gf, pleading from my sisters and a threat from my cousin...i was off. Dressed in my Saturday best, a crew of about 10- we entered the premises like we owned it, all eyes were on us, it was like slow motion but as fast as we walked in we walked out, it was just too hot and humid in there. We settled to lime outside, by the front gate. It was the perfect spot. Swaying to the music, drinks flowing freely, we greeted, laughed and danced with everyone entering. It was hilarious. Didn't get home till about 5am on Sunday.I can honestly say i haven't partied like that in a long time....it was freeing. Have some pics to post up, I'll try my best to look for the non scandalous ones. Sunday, i just lazed around the house hanging out with my cousins who were there, all in all a very relaxing weekend.

Foolish rabbit....

Friends are so betraying, it makes me sick!!! One word of warning be very careful who you reveal your secrets to, some people find pleasure in dispensing it to other people. The cycle of gossip, and be sure they will add their own 2 cents mix it with your words and get a whole new meaning. Acccckkk i wanna Avada Kedavra someone seriously *pulls out wand*

I can't wait

There is a great injustice that occurs to me every week. The rain falls on weekdays, and refuses to fall on weekends. Acccckk, i don't know how long this will last though, i pray that there is at least one full blown, rainy weekend in store before the season is over, ah the joys of sleeping all day. Its Friday!!! A beautiful feeling has engulfed me I wanna dance * does crazy movements in chair*, this weekend is going to be awesome, got a big Hindu wedding to attend so that means party from tonite till Sunday. I'm looking forward to Saturday ( cooking/farewell) night , that's when the band will be on, chutney, tassa and rum...lol... ok I'm not a drinker .. I'm just going for the vibe, its been so long since I've been anywhere.It's all about enjoyment. Have to get some "snake oil' for my waist, if my friends have their way, I'll be dancing all night.Must wear loose fitting clothes....

5 more days

5 more days till Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince.I'm excited and anxious , so far every single one of my pals are excited, not as much as I am, but excited none the less. I've already made plans to stay home on Wednesday 22nd, I have yet to decide whether to head to Movie towne or CC8, one thing's for sure though I MUST buy my tickets in advance, else i will break down and cry.BTW i took "which Harry Potter character are you" quiz on FB and i got Luna Lovegood....It doesn't matter to me I'm glad to be anyone. But i do share her constant dreamy state.

Put that in yuh pipe....

Today's Word

Commesse....meaning: Gossip and slander, which usually leads to an argument

Example: she only looking innocent, she does cause real commesse in work.

Please use at least once today

I wanna hit him....

This morning while going through the newspaper the new "goodie" ad catches my eye, well it had to-- it was a full page ad--- First off, I hate kiss cakes, they are dry, chemical and choke like no tomorrow. But i love "goodie", the cream filling, the cake is moist because of it....it brings back so many memories from my childhood ...anways...the ad had this little boy about 7-9 years screwing up his face and pointing like a bad john. I got instantly angered, why? For one this is goodie, the boy should have been happy and secondly the bad boy attitude that everyone complains that the youth has is blatantly being promoted here, which disgusts me. Is the ad trying to convey ...eat a goodie or else I'll kick you ass? The ad is distasteful to say the least, I'm so turned off by it , i pledge that i will not buy another goodie for the rest of my life. I'll eat it if i get it free though..:P

In other news, I have a pet bat...yup... it lives in the stock room. i go turn on the lights, snap my finger twice, it files around then lands on the second to last beam, and hangs there while i go get my papers, notepads or whatever, but today the bat didn't respond to my finger snapping.I thought it must have left, but lo and behold from the warehouse like literally a bat outta hell , sweeps into the room , flies crazily around, sad to say, i yelped and ran. I realize that bats scare me.

The goodie ad still has me vex.

Pothead

I just spent the greater half of my night, reading about Harry Potter characters on Wiki...its 12.00am and I have work in a couple hours.....hello my name is Duran and i am a addicted to Harry Potter. *crowd repeats--hello duran*

Pottermania

My anticipation for Harry Potter and the Half Blood prince is going into maximum overdrive. I am weak with excitement, i can't think about anything but Harry Potter. As such I've once again made a list of the ten things i do to pass the time till the 22nd

1. My fb status is all about Harry Potter
2. I'm currently reading the deathly hallows for the third time
3.I'm searching for Hp clothes and costumes online
4. i came across a site listing the foods of HP and how to make the dishes, I'm going to try chocolate covered frogs
5.I run around speaking parsltounge
6.I'm reading all the reviews, looking at whatever clips and pics from the premier .
7.I am watching the movies AGAIN!
8.The harry potter theme song is now MY theme song
9.I'm pretending or in my case believing that I'm in the HP world, so my fb status goes like this: "have potions class and then divination uggh its going to be a long day"
10.I have drawn a lightening shaped scar on my forehead with my pen.

Well one week to go ...

Battle Field

How many times have i heard "Battle Field" by Jordin Sparks today? Too many times to count, I never cared for Jordin Sparks now it is imprinted in my mind, and even though i don't want to ...I'm humming it....God this is how the media makes you like something, this is the "it grew on me effect"....I blame Pat Benatar for all this love is a battlefield talk...argggghhh...*hums in my head--a Battle field, a battle field---*

Potter Mania

Pottermania has hit, and it hit hard.

Case 1: I'm pointing a ruler at my co-worker and shouting stupefy

Case 2: My gf know and repeats all of Snape's line from the first movie, word for word

Case 3: I get angry that the car doesn't fly

Case 4: I can't stop thinking that Jk Rowling is really Hermione

Case 5: I run around with a broom, pretending its Quidditch

Case6: I refer to my GM as "she who shall not be named"

Case 7: All the persons in my life i don't like are labeled Deatheaters

Case 8: I am constantly on the look out for testrals

Case 9: I wanna list Hogwarts on my resume as my Secondary School

Case 10: I speak parsletounge to annoy people.

Of Movies, Fights, Fat and Food....

This weekend:

I feverishly looked at 3 Harry Potter movies to quell my anticipation for the newest one to come. I can't stand the waiting, its like the 22nd will never get here fast enough. I can't find my HP book collection and its freaking me out. I'm sure i hid it somewhere safe ( i hope) . In the mean time I'm stuck with watching the movies over and over again....I know i slacked off with transformers , i have yet to see it , this wont happen for HP I've been waiting since last year.

I had a fight with the gf, yet again...seems we are doing this disagreement thing alot lately , is she becoming tired of me? I am acting way to childish? Am i just letting my life's frustration affect us? These are all the questions going through my head. The weekend past was probably the worse fight we had recently, the hurt cut deep. Thankfully we made up yesterday. Its amazing how a little communication coupled with swallowing your pride can do.

I am fat.thats it, to the point. I need to really look at what i wolf down.

I forgot to make lunch for myself for the whole week, so today i had to eat whatever my mom packed. I may attempt to make something tonite.Lets hope i get the time.

Thats the weekend round up...

The kiddies...

The eldest Tristan and Me

His little sister Lily

My second Niece Celine

I realized i haven't put up pics of my bundles of joy for a long time, so here they are. Growing at an alarmingly fast rate.

OMG they are vege!!

Do you know: shrimp fries/shrimp slice/ pop ups/ shrimp puffs....whatever you call it. Its the Chinese shrimp snack, that puffs up when they hit hot oil.Well they come in a vege version....OMG you say? i said the same thing, they come in different shapes too.Way cool, but way salty for my taste.I made some this weekend and had to drink a ton of water after :P

And the rains came

The rain last night was absolutely wonderful. Even though i had school till 8.30 which btw was a good class...I'm learning so much its amazing. Coming outside the building, the sky lit up with some serious lighting. For a minute i was dumbfounded, its been so long since i saw lightening i relished it until the security snapped me back to reality saying 'aye i wanna lock up now" i made the walk to the Library through the rain, even though my surroundings was sickeningly polluted, i enjoyed the feeling the rain drops gave me as it hit every part of my exposed body. I wasn't thoroughly soaked but severely chilled. What could cure this chill? Some piping hot pizza. That's exactly what the gf and I had before i got home. The excitement within me was building, was this the night i get to be lulled off by the sound of raindrops? I wanted to hit my bed ASAP , but couldn't fight the urge to stand outside. Standing there in the dark, lightening over head, the sound of thunder breaking the silence occasionally. The rain poured over me and i felt so alive and thankful that i was. After drying off, i crawled into my bed chilled to the bone, pulling my blankets around me tighter I took a deep breathe, the last thing i remember is seeing the sky light up thorough my window. I awoke to my alarming blaring in my ear, it was the best night sleep ever, and what's better is its rainy once again today...sigh....the perfect start to the weekend, and a great way to end a week. Now if only i had a cup of hot chocolate my time here at the office would be bearable.

Konnichiwa

I want to learn Japanese. Seriously this is not just the hyper anime obsessed me talking, its the real me.I want to be able to walk into a Chinese shop and order something while speaking their native tongue and let everyone gasp. i wanna make sure when i order chicken, rice and noodles... when the lady goes to the kitchen window and shouts to the guy at the back she is not saying..."hey there's a dumb looking one out here, give him the dog we cooked this morning, i don't think he will notice the difference, and use yesterday noodles k, i don't want to throw it out".I swear that's what i think they are saying sometimes.But i wanna learn--it so far, the words i know is hello and thank you.

In other news, i found myself singing coldplay's trouble, and kept saying spiderman instead of spiderweb, through out the whole song i was singing " it's spiderman and i'm caught in the middle", before realizing wtf am i saying. It got me thinking of all the songs that i obviously repeat the wrong words over and over, there are alot -be my lover by la bouche...sweet dreams of rivermen dancing...its actually sweet dreams of rhythm and dancing..lol.. but it sounds like it rivermen. I wont even start on the Indian one, i mumble words, pretend i know what the hell I'm saying and hope no one notices.Harry potter is opening in a couple weeks, 2 to be exact...i am officially excited, so much so that I'm watching all the movies over again, starting from movie one. Yes i am obsessed and taking it a tad far, but i don't care, i love harry potter. I wanna stay home opening day , but i am sure my bosses will know i am faking sick.I rant about HP alot, i even told some of my co workers of having the urge to wear a robe, pick a guava whip ( as my wand) run around yelling stupefy at people. That would be so kool.It will be kool cause it would work. Anyways i have alot of work to do today, so i better get cracking. I also have graphics class later, i am as usual excited. Did i mention that we have a new teacher and this one is so much more knowledgeable than the last. I'm thinking I'll learn lots, however i have to commit to actually reading and doing home, last night i stayed up to 12 struggling to do homework. I have pictures of a retarded cube i did in class, will post it up soon. Back to the grind....

1...2...3...4...tell me that you love me more...

The gf had a "bf" ( quoted from white girls- bitchfit) last night. Why? Because i didn't text her. I got home flung my bag (cell phone and everything) on the bed, went outside to play with the babies, before i knew what was happening it was about 7, came inside my phone was ringing....twas her asking if i am ok..to which i replied yup...although there were no outright signs that something was wrong, my instinct kicked in and Boom before i knew what was happening BF happened. Online now --i told her i missed her today ( yesterday) to which she answered " no offense but it didn't seem like that) gaaahhhhhhh....I know i may not be right, yea i could have taken a few minutes out of my evening to text/call her, but she was in the mall presumably with her cousin- i in my male knowledge was thinking hey I'm giving her some alone time, but boy was i ever wrong. this morning usually she would call me to say hello, keep company while i make my way to the highway. No call, -i text- i get back a cold text as a reply, it was so cold..i held my cell phone up to the sun to warm it up. I dunno how today will be, should i make the moves to make up? should i see how long she would move cold? Should i give her sometime for herself? Or should i jus stop everything, be a man and apologize? I dunno, but what i do know is that i missed her this morning.

Beauty and the Beast

Remember the musical my gf and I attended? Beauty and the Beast....as usual i wasn't expecting much from this play and for once I was correct. It was no where as good as the other plays we attended, mind you it did have its high points but most of the play was just filler and no thriller. I especially disliked the actor that played belle's dad, he was trying too hard to act and sound old. The singing was ok, nothing exceptional unless you count the dressing table ...that actress ...wow..the lady can hit a high note.But i am no play critic, i just speak of my opinion. The gf however was enthralled , she loves everything musical, including those little boxes that play Beethoven music over and over again. The only musical she can do with out is my singing, and anime music...which she detests for some reason. In fact come to think of it she hates Animes...well i guess you can't win them all...she likes video games however, so i should settle for that.Anyways back to Beauty and the Beast, it was an okay show...but i would do it all over again if it meant seeing the huge grin on my Gf's face. I read in the newspaper that they are going to butcher..errr..i mean put together the little mermaid....lets hope its better. After the play, we searched for food, like ravenous animals....ravenous animals that couldn't make up their minds...lol...we stopped at KFC, Pizza boys, slowed down in front Churches Chicken, stared at Doubles people....but changed out minds each time. At the end we didn't get anything...lol.. that's us in print..unable to make up our minds...it was a nice Friday night.